Another Grey Day in the Big Blue World

Welcome to college life, Nadya!

Wed, 04 Oct 2006 15:53:19 GMT

[mood : enthralled]
[music : Requiem for the Evil - Tsubasa : Reservoir Chronicle OST]

*runs to livejournal panting and crying tears of blood and drops dead* I SWEAR I AM NOT TO BE BLAMED FOR DISSAPEARING FOR, WHAT...3 MONTHS :0? Apparently me and my friends in the boarding house just got our internet connection after a long, hard road of searching for ISP. I have absolutely no idea that we have to be inside the waiting list for two months either! Damn my university and my boarding house to be located in a very crowded network-connection area T__T As a consequence I lost contact too with hardysmidgen, skadihelias, and natsuhiiko ;___;! *WAILS AND OOZES ANGST*

I think I quite like it here - unexpectedly, all the people in my boarding house are anime freaks O__O ~~and I used to think that they're college nerds that only read textbooks,I NEED TO BE SHOT XD~~ Too bad they don't like Yaoi, but I think they know that I am a diehard yaoi fangirl by know, as I have dropped too many hints lately ~~and I am not ashamed, GODDAMNIT~~. A girl I usually hang out with in college is even more addicted to Anime and Manga than them, but she reacted like, "Ew!!! I can't stand YAOI T__T!" ...I almost snapped at her that time - she noticed my offended expression and quickly said that she didn't think homosexuality is wrong, it's just that she is not really used to see yaoi stuffs, so yeah, the natural disaster ( a.k.a Nadya's FANGIRL WRATH OF Do0m ) was pretty much prevented by then and we still hang out together ^^;;

TRC Chapter 126-130

I SHOULD SQUEE AND SPLEEN NOW Vampire!Fai moaning and writhing inside Kurogane's arms? AND DID YOU SEE THE LOOK THEY GIVE to EACH OTHER BEFORE FAI COLLAPSED OMG IT'S SO TEH LOVE ♥ I guess with CLAMP we all should expect the unexpected, eh? They made Kamui and Subaru twins, who said they couldn't make Fuuma and Seishirou brothers too XD? I EXPECT DOUBLE WEDDING FROM NOW ON! ~~Kuro/Fai is not included because they've been married since chapter 124 :D~~ I am not going to be surprised if in another world Kotori and Hokuto are sisters O___O

*INCOHERENT FANGIRL KEYBOARDSMASH* I hope I am not the only one who died at the scene where Fuuma uses his wires to bind Kamui and then *molest* him. I LOVE THIS TOKYO/X WORLD SO MUCH ♥ ♥ ♥ Although I am bit curious...why did Kamui and Subaru run away from Seishirou at the first place? Fuuma seems to be hinting that Seishirou is hunting for Subaru's ass instead of "immortality" he says he has been searching for to Clone!Syaoran in Outo world...

Sakura's character development is AWESOME. I love how she reverts back to her "Zettai daijobu" self from CCS. It takes a SUPERWOMAN to walk determinedly after having her fingernails ripped off and leg stabbed by a piece of metal x__x Just looking at those pages where her gloves wore off makes me cringe. So she has found the egg Yuuko requested for Watanuki? CLAMP seem quite intent in showing that TRC and XXXholic are indeed sisters fandom. How could she walk back to the Diet Building then? Fai looks like he would immediately bolt off after hearing that Sakura is outside alone, but then Kurogane has insisted that he shouldn't move yet...By the way, don't you think that Fai's talk with Yuuko concerning Kurogane looks like...a love confession XD? He admits that he has gotten "too close" to Kurogane and crosses "the line"! My inner Kuro/Fai fangirl nearly died from shock after THE CUTE PETNAMES STOPPED OHNOESTHEWOE ;_____;!!! Kurogane, don't look so broken-hearted! YOU HAVE A TOUGH ROAD AHEAD AND WE KNOW THAT YOUR LOVE FOR FAI WILL PREVAIL IN THE END!

Also, about Fai telling Yuuko that his "answer" to Kurogane is "unforgiveness for letting him live"....does this mean that he will indeed refuse to drink Kurogane's blood? Oh, but Kurogane will do as far as shoving the blood to Fai's throat by using any means necessary - I know that in this chapter many Kuro/Fai fangirls are wailing in despair and crying profusely, but this is what we love from CLAMP, right? Sophisticated, angsty yaoi relationship. These show the extent of Kurogane's feeling for Fai, even acting as selfish as refusing to let Fai die. In CLAMP, the theme of love is always accompanied by the guide for "know how to be selfish" and "sacrifice yourself for your precious person", right? Good luck, Kurogane-sama!

WAIT, ISN'T CHAPTER 131 SUPPOSED TO BE OUT TODAY T___T?

XXXholic Chapter 119-120

I feel quilty that Chapter 119 is the first XXXholic that I read. SOMEONE PLEASE GIVE ME THE LINK TO THE ENGLISH-SCANLATED HOLIC CHAPTERS AND I'LL LOVE YOU FOREVER :0! *craves for Doumeki/Watanuki filled arcs such as the Spider Arc* I don't feel any hatred at all towards Himawari. Poor girl, I guess she just can't help herself for wanting to hang out with Watanuki eventhough she brings bad luck to people around her? ~~I DON'T SUPPORT WATANUKI/HIMAWARI, DON'T LOOK AT ME LIKE THAT~~ If I were her, I wouldn't be able to take the pressure of being cursed to bring bad luck T^T so that's why eventhough she is smart and pretty, she never really have friends except Watanuki and Doumeki? And the scene where she cries outside is just...guh.

CLAMP are SOOOO in the romantic mood while drawing TRC and XXXholic XDDD. There will be future blood exchange of Kuro/Fai and now Doumeki sacrifices himself *again* to donate a vast amount of blood to Watanuki? CLAMP and their sacrifice/blood fetish...The only thing I don't understand : Real!Syaoran paid in advance for not letting Watanuki die? Just what is his connection with Watanuki? And is Real!Syaoran = CCS!Syaoran? If he's not CCS!Syaoran...does he have his own "Sakura" before Fei Wong Reed kidnapped him? I just discovered the R!Syaoran/C!Syaoran pairing and OHMYGOSH I feel so WRONG and RIGHT at the same time to be one of the pairing shippers >D

TRC Future Soundscapes IV

YUKI KAJIURA IS THE GOD. I COMMAND YOU TO DOWNLOAD IT - there wasn't a single bad soundtrack this time! WHY OH WHY BEETRAIN HAS THE BRAIN TO HIRE YUKI KAJIURA BUT LACK THE BRAIN TO KEEP THE GHEI? My hopes that they would keep the anime gay after Episode 41 are burned to ashes...The anime is SO a pathetic waste of time for us CLAMP fangirls. I would rather they don't continue to Season 3. I don't want to see Tokyo world being invaded by those disgusting het trains >( And Kristy-san? Remember the background soundtrack we were talking back then in the Kuro/Fai library episode? It is included in this edition! The title is "Ai Koi" and the full version sounds 1,000,000,000,000 times more excellent *___*

To Kristy-san, Rhee, Narujima, and all of you, I'll try my best to catch up with all your entries, but unfortunately I have a really HECTIC college schedule for this month, along with the upcoming Mid-Exams and me joining six extracurricular clubs, I can only start catching up from this Friday T___T Being a newbie in a college sucks, I swear - I cannot procrastinate like when I was in high school *mewls pitifully* Let me see if I can start tomorrow... ~~AND WTF IS WRONG WITH ALL LECTURERS GIVING QUIZZES FROM MONDAY TO FRIDAY THIS WEEK~~

TRC Icons and Baibai Post of some sort

Tue, 08 Aug 2006 16:22:58 GMT

[mood : Nooo I don't wanna leave you all T___T]
[music : Kaze no Machi He - Tsubasa : Reservoir Chronicle OST]

An announcement of some sort ( Holy potato I keep on leaving and returning *sweatdrops* ) - I am going to leave for Jakarta again to enroll in an university. Tomorrow morning we'll start unplugging the cables from the computer and start packing, so I won't have any internet access for at least three weeks T^T I am still wondering how to plot a plan to stay alive for that long without LJ and my fandom...*sobs in a dark corner of her room*

Actually it won't be that long if not for the university holding some kind of "Welcome to the University Live!" trip to some beach on some remote island and some hills :0 That and I still need to buy a new monitor and look for an ISP in Jakarta. I like our new ISP here, but I can't use it anymore since they only provide it in my city. I'LL MOST DEFINITELY COME BACK TO INTERNET AND LJ CRYING TEARS OF BLOOD AND SOBBING HYSTERICALLY ;______;

Anyway, I promised a Temporary Goodbye gift to Kristy-san, and here are 30 icons from Tsubasa : Reservoir Chronicle I made dedicated to her ( Everyone must check her AWESOME Tsubasa Episode 41 post, it's full of KuroFai crack! TESTED AND APPROVED! ) Kristy-san, these icons are yours - feel free to do anything with them! Since they're made exclusively for her, please ask Kristy-san if you want to snag them ^__^

-Most of them are Kurogane/Fai, so sue me
-Comment please XD? I'd like to know what you think even if you aren't taking any
-Credits make me happy, but aren't necessary
-Please don't Hotlink
-Some images contain spoilers of the recent chapters of Tsubasa

TEASERS :

01.) 02.) 03.) 04.)
05.) 06.) 07.) 08.)
09.) 10.) 11.) 12.)
13.) 14.) 15.) 16.)
17.) 18.) 19.) 20.)
21.) 22.) 23.) 24.)
25.) 26.) 27.) 28.)
29.) 30.)

CREDITS :
-textures, brushes, and bases are from ownthesunshine, susuyo and colorfilter
-cleaned Tsubasa scans are from evercool
-19 and 18 coloured manga images are from session ( the others are coloured by me using Photoshop 7.0 )
-the screencaps used for 01 are taken from hydrangea

Now that I am done here...WISH ME LUCK IN MY FIRST DAY IN UNIVERSITY! I'LL BE BACK THREE WEEKS AGAIN ONCE I'VE SETTLED IN JAKARTA ^______^!

Double Fangirling is definitely going to be the death of me X__0

Sun, 06 Aug 2006 14:44:39 GMT

[mood : The Kuro/Fai canon ship has arrived!]
[music : Anything For You - Evanescence]

Guess who's back XD? *ignores the "YOU'RE LATE!!!" screams* It's not the ISP technicians's fault, it's my computer's fault - After the technicians took down my previous ISP cables, we restarted the computer and it went...comatose? After a few minutes of prodding, they cheerfully declared that my harddisk is in critical condition, so I need to replace it with the new one before I could start using the new ISP ~~THANK GOD I HAVE ALL MY DATA BACKED UP ALREADY. What the heck I am going to do if I lost my 10,373+++ CLAMP images I have been collecting since the red blood dawn of CLAMPKIND?~~

The repairmen fixed my computer slowly, but thank God it's worth waiting ♥ ! The new connection is fast like WHOA, I absolutely adore the new look of my computer, and I finally can view those excellent AMVs at YouTube now - I missed so many important things going on in my beloved Fangirl Quartet of Do0m journals, but FANGIRLING is my first priority because Tsubasa, one of the two fandom that is currently gnawing at my brain, is on it's peak of awesomeness ♥ ♥ ♥ Unfortunately there's nothing to rant about Naruto now aside of Akatsuki having a Jinchuuriki marathon of some sort...so, until then...*CAT-ON-CREAM GRIN*

Click on the cut link if you dare to step into the unknown field of fangirl zone. MAKE SURE YOUR CAPSLOCK SENSE IS TINGLING :D!!!

IS IT POSSIBLE FOR CLAMP TO OVERGAY THEIR CHARACTERS?

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!!!! ASL;FJFKDLHG ;LASFHF A;FDJFJ A;SDKDJ HAVE I DIED AND WENT TO THE FANGIRL HEAVEN?! YES, THIS MUST BE HEAVEN - WHERE ELSE CAN I BE AFTER MY BRAIN EXPLODED FROM EXCESS SPAZZING?

Before I even can stop fangirling over the Kuro/Fai canon-ness in Chapter 124 ( You can know WHY after reading Kristy's Tsubasa 124 Kuro/Fai Post, that pretty much sums up everything WORTH-SQUEEING ♥ in that previous chapter ), Chapter 125 came out early!!!! AND NOW I CAN SAY THIS FREELY : Kuro/Fai is more canon than Sasuke/Naruto, although not as canon as Yuki/Shuuichi...yet. SERIOUSLY, IF AFTER SEEING THE DEADLY KURO/FAI CANON HINTS COMBINATION OF CHAPTER 112+121+124+125 YOU STILL DENY THE CANON-NESS, YOU MUST HAVE A LUMP OF COAL AS A BRAIN :0

....Best.scenario.ever. I *LOVE* how Kurogane's expression is always shadowed and the extremely furious looks he gives to everyone concerning the matters Fai's safety - even strangling Fai and punch a really huge hole in the wall after hearing Fai's words that he doesn't want to live. I remember Yuuko's words in xxxHOLIC, "Even if you love someone, if you don't know how to deal with them it will turn to violence." C'mon people, we are talking about CLAMP's fandoms here, where SUBTEXT EQUALS BUTTSEX. Take into consideration that xxxHOLIC is a sister fandom to Tsubasa - CLAMP has been ooooooh so sweetly generous to us fangirls lately, hmmm ^_____^? Not that I am complaining, in fact if someone does complain I'll just walk/swim/fly to the yakuza's place and order, "Make it slow and painful, kay?"

So finally Kamui and Subaru start doing something instead of standing in the background looking pretty with those kickass vampire capes? ~~Hokuto is happy somewhere~~

OMG our angst baby, Subaru appears in his TB-form in Tsubasa ♥ ♥!! He's Kamui's vampire twin and CLAMP also makes Seishirou a lot more younger here, so I guess we shouldn't be surprised after all. Subaru, I sincerely hope that in Tsubasa you'll have your happy ending with darling Seishirou! Third time's a charm, right? He has undergone too many mental torture in Tokyo Babylon and X/1999. I ♥ his brotherly interraction with Kamui and how protective Kamui is towards him. Abused ~~and molested~~ ukes need to protect each other in order to survive! Seishirou and Fuuma is going to have a hard time separating those two XD

EVERYONE IN TSUBASA HAS BECOME A MEMBER OF CLAMP'S ANGSTY VICTIMS CLUB NOW...oh, what the hell was I thinking? Of course they are! They're in X world now and this world PWN even the Shurano world in the level of angstiness...they even have the president of CAVC, Subaru, and the vice-president, Kamui standing in front of their very eyes!

So in order to save Fai, Yuuko demands Subaru to give his blood to Fai, but if Fai only receives Subaru's blood, he'll be prancing around sucking everyone's blood, so Yuuko asks Kurogane to give Fai his blood too because it's Kurogane wish to not letting Fai die. By giving Fai his blood, Kurogane and Fai's destiny will be entwined forever, Fai is going to be forever fed on Kuro's blood and if Kurogane dies, Fai will automatically die too. Fai will become some sort of half-vampire thingy who only can drink Kurogane's blood in order to live, and they can't be separated anymore because from now on they'll have a shared fate, which means Kurogane will need to drag Fai whenever he goes, even back to his homeland in Nihon :

Yuuko:That's why vampire's blood may not be the only thing he will receive. Kurogane. Your wish is that Fai does not die. That is not what he wishes for. Therefore, you will be responsible for his life. ~~( Read : Will you, Kurogane, take his hand in marriage and take care of him forever, in good and suffering times? )~~
Kurogane: I'll do anything.
Yuuko : From now on, Fai will become the recipient of your blood forever.
Fai : D....D-dont...
Kurogane : You, shut the hell up!! If you want so much to die, kill me later. So for now, live!

CAN IT BE MORE ROMANTIC?! IT'S BETTER THAN THE SCENARIO OF KUROGANE GIVING FAI ONE OF HIS EYE. HA for those non-Kuro/Fai believers who keeps on saying, "No, this couple is not possible because Kuro will stay in Nihon and Fai's gonna go wandering forever through dimensions!" Kurogane and Fai are going to be a married vampiric couple now....XD?? Quoting the fangirls at Tsubasa forum, "It's like marriage, only they both can't get a divorce!" I thought Kuro/Fai was made canon in Chapter 112, but that was nothing compared to 124 and 125 O_______O

Don't you think their relationship parallels Syaoran/Sakura and Seishirou/Subaru, the most famous CLAMP canon relationships? The way Kurogane asks Yuuko to save Fai's life ridiculously reminds me of the way Syaoran hugs Sakura tightly in his first time visiting Yuuko's shop and willing to do everything to save her - And somewhere in the previous chapters, Kamui mentions that Subaru also gave Seishirou his blood, which is why the Seishirou Syaoran knows hasn't aged a bit since the last time he saw him.

Total Randomness : Fai is sooooooooo pretty in these two chapters ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ And for two times in a row, his true smile is reserved for Kurogane only :3. Please tell me that I am not the only one who thinks that the panel where Kurogane's blood dripping to Fai's mouth is...disturbingly EROTIC? Damn, I can't imagine how erotic it will be if Fai will start to randomly suck the blood off Kurogane's neck and wrist. WITH SOME LICKING INVOLVED. *SMASHES HEAD AGAINST KEYBOARD REPEATEDLY* XD XD XD Does this mean that Fai can regenerate his eye, since Clone!Syaoran ripped Kamui's arm out and it can be connected again?

But Fai probably would start angsting afterwards and refuse to drink Kurogane's blood, so maybe it'll be like this in future chapters? :

Kurogane : *slashes wrist* Oi, about the damn time you drink this!
Fai : *ANGSTS* N-no...I don't want it Kuro-sama...why did you save my live back then?
Kurogane : *drinks his own blood, manhandles Fai to the floor and forces him to drink it mouth-to-mouth*
Fai : O____O!! Hmph! Mff!
Subaru and Kamui and rest of the gang : *are trying to divert their attentions to somewhere else*
Seishirou and Fuuma : *are somewhere wandering around* Damn, when can we molest and torture our respective uke(s)?!
Fei Wong Reed : *is somewhere watching Clone!Syaoran wrecking shit* My smug face needs to be shot, say the fangirls :D

And CLAMP pretended of not knowing that there is a HUGE fan desire of Kuro/Fai pairing -.- .......? Uso mitai.....~~I TOLD YOU ALL THAT THOSE FOUR HARPIES WERE FEIGNING INNOCENCE!~~ Those four evil, evil women know too well how to pamper and torture their fans at the same time...because there won't be any Tsubasa chapter for two weeks, and the coloured pages are wasted on Syaoran/Sakura images...OH GOD I LOVE THOSE TWO, BUT WE HAVE HAD TOO MANY OF THEIR COLOURED SPLASH PAGES ALREADY - No offense for Clone!Syaoran fans...but Fai's blue eye looks good only if it's inside Fai's eye socket D:!

Another good news : Tsubasa Anime Episode 41 is 60% Kuro/Fai hints?! What the hell happened to BEETRAIN O____O?! I am baffled! Hope they won't screw it again with the upcoming fillers. Well, maybe BEETRAIN's director read Chapter 124+125 and was like, "Holy shit, I just murdered one canon pairing in my show?! OH MY GOD, have to shove all the gay stuffs in the short remaining times to catch up with the manga!!"

Once again, the gayness prevails and BEETRAIN's het raid train has crashed and sunk to the bottom of Bermuda Triangle, the place where it should stay forever XD.

New ISP, here I come~!

Mon, 31 Jul 2006 14:47:55 GMT

[mood : restless]
[music : Smile - Daisuke Namikawa (Fai D.Flowright)]

I WON'T HAVE ANY INTERNET CONNECTION FOR TWO DAYS >___>! We have been applying for a new ISP in our city, and now the technician has already come to our house to replace the antennas and modems and all that stuffs. Tomorrow they're going to do some check up to see if all the client's internet connection are ready to be launched, and I would most likely have to spend two days playing with Photoshop, wrestling with my doodle bunnies, or daydreaming about MANSMUT. Needless to say, I will be stuck with my overactive imagination for two days T^T But they did say in the advertisement that this ISP runs seven times faster than my current one ( GRRR! Why did my dad agree to change the ISP just before I leave for studying to Jakarta?! My little brothers are the ones that would enjoy it while I am gone! And then I'll have to search for a new ISP in Jakarta! *grumble grumble*)

So, take care, MY LOVELIES! I'll poke and koala-hug you all after I come back!

I solemnly swear I am up to no good.

Thu, 27 Jul 2006 04:34:03 GMT

[mood : crackalicious]
[music : Strange Games - Tsubasa : Reservoir Chronicle OST]

Muhahahahaha, once again. LJ has brought the rabid fangirls to unite together! Narujima, welcome to ~~the livejournal chains of the Fangirl Rant Headquarters~~ my f-list! Now I have my own Fangirl Quartet of Do0m! you guys know who you are!

ZOMG I JUST HAD MY FIRST HEAT STROKE YESTERDAY O___OV Moral lesson? Never run outside the garden trying to feed your Siberian huskies while the sun is scorching hot just after you exit your 16-degree-Celcius, air-conditioned bedroom --___--;; Anyway, I promised Kristy-san that I'll treat her with some Kuro/Fai stuffs today, so here they are - a Kuro/Fai-ish 4 panel comic *GASP* And it's my first 4 panel comic too! ( it's crudely drawn, but it's crack, and I am adamant in my belief that crack doesn't need to be thoroughly done ~~for the sake of our sanity~~ ) ...and one more Kuro/Fai doodle :

The reason I made that yonkoma XP? I was thinking last night, "Sakura is cute and all, but how come people only fall in love with her and keep mentioning her cuteness but no one gives a compliment to Fai's beauty? He's prettier than Sakura, Tomoyo, Yuuko, and Chii combined together! ~~And has a horde of stampeding, horny fanboys somewhere, which is why Kurogane always has that scowl in his face~~"

Ufufufufu...fufufu..fufu... Why I always feel this immense pleasure whenever I am playing dress-the-bishie-up! with my favourite Tsubasa OTP? Fai is more fun to be crossdressed than Naruto ( Naruto : Hey, I am still 15 for Heaven's sake! ) He's like...a bishounen version of Barbie doll? Nuooo, I must drive away the disturbing images before I start picturing Kurogane as Ken O___O! *HEADDESKS* I've drawn Kuro and Fai in kimonos so I think it's alright to draw an Arabian-night version of Kuro and Fai? Please don't hurt me or threaten me with sharp pointy objects - I am used to draw sticks and bones figure, I am not an artist >__>! Sultan!Kurogane and Concubine!Fai = AU OTP :3? Oooh, in what world I shall draw a doodle of them next~....*stares at a faraway place to the horizon*

TRC Chap 123 - Clone!Syaoran scares the shit outta me! The emotions and angst in this chapter is really intense - if this chapter is already like this....I don't want to imagine how the post-eye trauma chapters will turn out ~~although some Kuro/Fai hurt/comfort moments or anything related to Fai's past are highly appreciated in later chapters~~ They only have a RAW scan of it, and I only can read several dialogues so I really can't say much about this chapter yet, but...Sakura is angsting like WHOA here - The way clone!Syaoran reacts coldy to her and casually slashed Subaru's cocoon traumatized her, I think. BUT GUH NO! clone!Syaoran inserts another feather he finds in that cocoon to Sakura's body...so this mean Sakura will fall asleep for 3++ more chapters...? WHO WILL STOP CLONE!SYAORAN from poking everyone's eyes out?! Real!Syaoran is already KO-ED...wake up, Subaru!

Nothing much about Kurogane and Fai this chapter...but even in a small panel, the Kuro/Fai-ness still existed! Nyaan, Kuro-pii shielding Fai from the blast from clone!Syaoran's Hien sword and doesn't put Fai down but cradling him closer instead makes my inner Kuro/Fai fangirl bunnies do a tribal dance happily! And why are the scenes in this chapter look disturbingly familiar to the scene in X/1999 where Fuuma is turning evil? Clone!Syaoran is turning to another Fuuma T^T!!! ~~WAIT, DOES THIS MEAN FAI IS THE KOTORI HERE?!~~

EDIT : Hey, I just noticed something odd in Tsubasa Chapter 122 + 123....In chapter 121 Kurogane broke Clone!Syaoran's arm for hurting Fai, right? Then can someone explain why in 122 and 123 Clone!Syaoran can use BOTH of his hands freely? Thanks to some magical plotholes? Or thanks to Fai's pretty sparkling magic..?

My brain is in the middle of melting from excess fangirling and the extreme need to rant...off now to rant with my darlings! ( Kristy-san, I am going to reply to your previous batch of comments today even if it kills me! )

Damn you and your het raid, BEETRAIN!

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 14:21:52 GMT

[mood : The het raid sickens me]
[music : Does Not Wither - Takuma Terashima]

So, two days ago my brother came home carrying Tsubasa Anime Season 2 VDCs. I am not all enthusiastic about the anime as I am to the manga, and I have heard from fellow fangirls that the anime sucks a royal dick since BEETRAIN, the studio which is working on Tsubasa Anime now LOVES to insert random het couple *GAG* However I love how gay Fai's seiyuu sounds in the anime, so I had to swallow some pride to watch Episode 32 : A Date With the Magician ( which happens to be the ultimate form of the HET PARADE BEETRAIN have ever made for us )

GAG ME. EVERYONE SHOULD PROBABLY BOYCOTT BEETRAIN NOW!

Fai *taking* Chii out from a date means Fai/Chii...? *SNORTS IN DISBELIEF* There's like NONE Fai/Chii hints in the manga. EVER. And in this oh-so-called BEETRAIN's filler episode they make Chii randomly hugging Fai! Chii, you know I love you, but in Tsubasa you're a POOL NET and you better stay that way. I am seriously wondering what kind of het crack the anime producer is on - In the first season they took off the gay hints ( Like the scene in my icon ) and inserted some random OC couples to the fillers, but at least it didn't hurt the storyline or messeing up their characterization in the manga by CLAMP - but GUH?! The second season seriously baffles me - This episode contradicts Fai's character development in the manga! We all know that as the chapter progresses, Fai revels more of his personality, as Kurogane has mentioned, "Grinning all the time, but never getting close to anybody. Like you don't want to involve yourself with anyone", and suddenly, in this filler chapter, BEETRAIN ruins everything.

Okay, I don't think that all het pairings in Tsubasa should be banished to the seventh level of hell or anything - I enjoy CLAMP's het pairings as much as I enjoy the yaoi ones ( e.g Syaoran/Sakura, Yamazaki/Chiharu, Sorata/Arashi, and Kusanagi/Yuzuriha ), it's just the pairing Fai/Chii itself that is utterly ridiculous >(

Has everyone forget that Chii has her own OTP in Chobits? The official couple there is Hideki/Chii for fuck's sake! I know that Tsubasa is AU, but CLAMP never screws their own previous pairings, proven by the canon-ness of Touya/Yuki ( that OTP must be CLAMP's personal favourite, since we never see them living without eachother in Tsubasa ) the hints toward Seishirou/Subaru in the Outo Arc, and drama love tragedy between Yasha-Ou and Ashura-Ou in Shurano Arc. CLAMP's het pairings also get occasional cameo appearance in the random worlds Syaoran-tachi get dumped to. The Shougo/Primera pairing threw me off, but they are not paired with anyone else in their own respective fandom, so everything is fine and dandy.

When will the Anime stop contradict the manga? In season one, there's even one filler episode where Sakura resurrects many dead people from a random world, which make our eyebrows raise since, isn't one the most famous quote from Tsubasa is, "No wonder how many times you tried, no matter how hard you try, once a person is dead, you can't bring them back to the world of the living anymore. It's a fact that remains the same in every world". As the result, in the second season BEETRAIN had to make a continuation from that peculiar chapter where all the people Sakura ressurects vanish back to the Underworld. HA, SUITS THEM RIGHT. God fucking damn it, while in the manga we are treated by the progressing relationship of Kuro/Fai, the anime throw random ridiculous het couple at us!

WHY OH WHY CAN'T THEY JUST KEEP IT GAY?! ~~They even cut off the "Kuro-daddy!" and "Fai-mommy" joke who has been USED CONSTANTLY IN THE MANGA!~~

They should consult Card Captor Sakura and X/1999 Anime Producer or something. Eventhough filler chapters came abound, THEY DO NOT REMOVE ANY SHOUNEN-AI/YAOI HINTS OR PAIR TOUYA AND YUKITO WITH RANDOM GIRLS! In case of Card Captor Sakura Anime, they even made it gayer since in the manga, the number of Clow Cards is only the half from the Anime. Thank God BEETRAIN doesn't give Ashura-Ou boobs, or they must pack quickly as the horde of CLAMP's stampeding fangirls come to rip them from limbs to limbs. I know that maybe BEETRAIN worked their ass off to create the filler episodes, but I am so fucking glad to hear that people are bashing Episode 33 like WHOA out there XD Even this picture failed to convey my rage :

The good thing that came from watching Tsubasa Anime Season 2 are...the old soundtracks still remain, and in the new ending song there are two shots of Kurogane and Fai in their childhood O___O! Even as a child, Kurogane looks ruggedly handsome with all the sakura petals flying all over him. As for child!Fai....HE CAN KILL YOU WITH HIS CUTENESS :3!!! If you passed him in the street and didn't feel like pouncing on him or eat him, you're not qualified as a human being T^T Ah, so Fai has lived inside Ashura's castle since his childhood ( judging by the royal Celes clothes he wear ) ~~Fai is so the future concubine *COUGHCOUGHHACK* I mean...royal wizard~~

...and because I haven't drawn anything for my new OTP...A doodle portrait of Kuro and Fai in kimonos? God bless my grandma to finally let me borrow some of her kimonos >D! Kuro-tan is so tall that he needs to crouch a little to fit into the piccie...I would love to draw the patterns in their sleeves, but there's not enough space in the paper ( ;___; ) For the love of all things holy, ignore the messiness that is my drawing!

P/S : Does this layout work in your browsers?

Nadya's permanent occupation : FANGIRL

Thu, 20 Jul 2006 18:17:03 GMT

[mood: complacent]
[music: Ship of Fools - Tsubasa : Reservoir Chronicle OST]

*cartwheels in* I AM BAAAAACK~!

Just arrived from Jakarta six hours ago @__@! Man, the flight was horrible and all because our city was surrounded by thick fogs this season...I think I couldn't stop murmuring a prayer inside the plane back then...even after having a nice nap for three hours, I still feel like hurling myself to the bathroom floor and throw up T^T The sad thing was as soon as I woke up I catapulted myself to my ~~husband~~ computer and started to catch up will all my lovely fandoms ♥

The trip to Jakarta was tiring (>__>) We didn't do much shopping and spent the time scouting around for a boarding house for me to stay in my college days. GOSH, I never realized before that searching for one in such a big city as Jakarta was really a pain in the ass! I know I said before that I would only leave for one week, but unfortunately we ran out of plane tickets, got the one only for today, and then mom dediced that it would be good if we also travelled to Bandung and Lembang, which only take two-hours car-ride from Jakarta to spend one extra week there *sweatdrops* Although I certainly can't protest since we got to visit the strawberry farm *___* THE YUMMIES OF FRESHLY PICKED STRAWBERRY YOGHURT AND JUICE!

I managed to go to the biggest bookstore in Jakarta, grab some Agatha Christie novels written in English ( FINALLY! WOO-HOO! AN IMPORTED BOOK, FRESH IN ENGLISH WITHOUT ANY ANNOYING INDONESIAN TRANSLATIONS ^______^! My bookworm bunnies are very satiated and satisfied NOW ) And guess what? I eventually stumbled upon a store which sells the complete set of copic markers, inking pen, and many stuffs to make mangas! *does a tango happily* After staring longingly at the copic markers for half an hour, finally my parents gave up and buy me nine of them ~~NEVER UNDERESTIMATE MY PUPPY EYES NO JUTSU, they're lethal~~ - they refused to buy me a set of it though ( Why they're so ridiculously expensive ;___;? )

The happiest moment of my live came when my brothers and I found several booths that sell many cheap Anime DVDs and smexy Anime/Manga posters! We can't stop SQUEALING over the shiny DVDs while choosing the anime we would like to buy *is a bit ashamed because the smexy onii-san at the booth stared at her as though she was a very dangerous species of fangirl, which really wasn't far away from the truth* We left the booth with hands full of the complete set of Shakugan no Shana, Wolf's Rain, Bleach, Neon Genesis Evangelion, and Tsubasa : Reservoir Chronicles DVDs and forty colourted anime posters ^__________^! I even found this SQUEELICIOUS poster of Ban groping Ginji's chest with all the chains and ripped shirts, and I am ready to swear that it is the official image of them - I remembered that Ban and Ginji do a lot of suggestive poses for official images ( Like the one when Ban lays on top of Ginji ) ...guess Kristy-san's words about how you shouldn't watch/read anime/manga at all if you're a half-assed homophobe because almost all of them contain bits of YAOI and YURI hints for it's inside the Japanese culture and we can even see that many het mangas have a healthy dose of them too ( e.g a homosexual relationship as a sidebar pairing, guys 'accidentally' kissing one another to 'spice the storyline up', or even guys pretend to fall in love with another guys just to make their girls jealous ) hits the bull's eye XD!

Mmmn, Neon Genesis Evangelion....I finally bought all of its DVDs after days of searching and many heartbrokens cause it's an old anime and all the owners of the Anime Shop in my city said that they're already sold out T^T;; It's one of my oldest fandoms, along with Card Captor Sakura, Beyblade and Yu Yu Hakusho - I used to watch Evangelion in my cousin's house who owned the pirated persion of Evangelion VCDs. Evangelion is like a lifesaver in those times when the harem-type animes ( Harem-type Anime : One girl/one guy being surrounded by many girls/boys who love+worship them because...UH...they can and thus pointless romances and catfights ensues ) disgustingly sprouted around everywhere.

When I watched the early episodes of Evangelion, I thought that it would be the same with another mecha shounen series - some fanservice with many parts of girl's anatomy being shown, the appearace of Rei and Asuka and their relationship with the main character, and some badass fight with the Angels who try to destroy Tokyo....but then I got SPAZZED by the astounding progress of the series O___O! All the characters are so wonderfully realistic, we get to learn more of the dark side of the characters, all the Eva pilots's mental breakdown, teenager ANGST. No damsel-in-distress here because all the girls are shown more powerful and strong willed than the boys ( Look at Rei, Asuka, Misato, and Ritsuko! Three cheers for independent women being able to kick some serious ass! )

AND IT WASN'T EVEN THE BEST PART OF THE SERIES XD - Kaworu just comes and BAM! I won't even let out a long-winded explanations why I think Kaworu/Shinji is an offcial yaoi couple in this series! I realize that there are some Shinji/Rei and Shinji/Asuke hints as well, but after the revelation of who Rei truly is, I only can think of Rei as a maternal figure that Shinji longs to have, and I don't think Asuka will do any good to Shinji - she obviously thinks that Shinji is pathetic, only has very little respect for him, keeps on demanding things from him and can't understand his pain. Kaworu, on the other side....I won't blame Shinji for falling in love with Kaworu...Seriously, WHO WOULDN'T? Kaworu just appears, offering Shinji his unconditional love without demanding a single thing from Shinji ( Which is a new thing for Shinji since everyone around him seem to use him and keep demanding things from him eventhough they say they care deeply for him...poor angst muffin with his unstable mentality ;___;! ) The bathroom scene just kills me ALSKDHDH;AFJFDSDALS :

Kaworu: You're so delicate, like glass, especially your heart.
Shinji: I am?
Kaworu: Yes, that's why you've earned my compassion.
Shinji: Compassion?
Kaworu: I'm saying I love you.
*INSERT SOME SHOTS OF SHINJI BLUSHING CUTELY HERE*

...And then Kaworu touches Shinji's hand in a very..intimate way and Shinji is left stuttering which earns a really sweet smile from Kaworu ♥ ♥ ♥

Shinji: It's time to go to bed.
Kaworu: With me?
Shinji: Huh?! Oh, no! I think you have your own room. A separate one.

Later that night after the nosebleed-inducing bathroom scenes, instead of returning to Misato's house, Shinji spends the night in Kaworu's place! Shinji pours out all the problems he keeps inside of his heart which he is unable to tell the others who has been with him since the start to Kaworu, and Kaworu responds by saying, "Maybe I was born to meet you" which earn another blush from Shinji...and then the scene skips to the next morning...don't you think they do another...*coughhackcough* "adult activity" too in that particular night since in the next morning when the fact that Kaworu is the last Angel revealed and Shinji reacts violently with these words : "You betrayed me! You betrayed my feelings!"? Shinji's expression's is really heart-wrenching in that one scene ;___;

It's ironic how Kaworu is Tabris, the Angel of Free Will, yet he was sent to NERV by SEELE with only two choice...to destroy humanity or to be destroyed by it, And he definitely chooses the latter as he asks for Shinji to kill him for his death is final wish. We have to wait for eternity for Shinji to finally crush Kaworu's body with the Eva's hand - Me and my cousin ( who doesn't like yaoi but ships Kaworu/Shinji all the way ) couldn't stop chanting "OHSHITNODON'TKILLHIMDON'TKILLHIMDON'TKILLHIM! Fuck the SEELE and NERV and the End of the World! Just elope together and live evilly ever after!" like a mantra...but to all fangirls dismay, he kills Kaworu anyway ;___________; <----*SPENDS FOUR BOX OF TISSUES AFTER THE SCENE*

We would have wailed more if we weren't treated by the Kaworu/Shinji-ness even after his death with the scene of Shinji and Misato sitting in a beach ( Which is also the place where Shinji first meets Kaworu and with the same background with the sunset ) :

Kaworu : *in flashback* Thank you. I am glad I met you.
Shinji : *to Misato* I loved him. He is the one who should live...not me....

HA. PLATONIC LOVE MY FOOT! Their relationship is so...tragically beautiful eventhough Kawory gets killed in the episode where he first appears. I watched the anime before the manga, so you can imagine how I fangirled over Volume 10 of Evangelion manga where they OFFICIALLY KISSED :D! Shinji doesn't like Kaworu first in the manga, but I totally love the way Kaworu tries to gain Shinji's attention and is like, "What?! You don't love me :3?" when Shinji continues to ignore him, but I love the way Shinji loves Kaworu in a sweet adoring way in the anime more <3. The five pages of their kissing scene in the manga look like they're just ripped fresh from NC-17 BL manga pages ♥ Here is the example :

And they were kissing for what, 10 minutes? 15 minutes? The kiss is so long that Shinji almost lost his breath after Kaworu released his lips O_o;; The kiss is forced by Kaworu, but Kaworu's expression after the kiss shows that he enjoys it muchly ~~NADYA SERIOUSLY THINKS THAT IT INVOLVES TONGUE AND ALL~~ I am dead sure that Shinji enjoys that secretly too, since he didn't really try to push or kick Kaworu while doing it...

I think Kaworu/Shinji pairing in Evangelion brings out a new light of hope to all the yaoi fangirls who lurk in the shounen series fandoms, since a homosexeual couple inside a shounen anime/manga is almost never heard of and I am sure a lot of gay basher Evangelion fans frowned upon the Kaworu/Shinji dynamics, but their opinion does not fucking matter anyway! If only the Sasuke/Naruto relationship were like that and ends like that too, I wouldn't mind one of them dying as the fans have calculated *__* Honestly, it's waaaaaaaay better than having Naruto series ends with a het raid like in Digimon and Harry Potter fandoms thanks to some big magical black plotholes ~___~! <----*wishful thinking*

*GASP* I've abandoned Tsubasa fandom for too long! The last chapter I read before I offered my soul to Naruto fandom was Chapter 60, me thinks >___> I downloaded all the chapters up to Episode 122 today like crazy because I heard that the KuroFai relationship is progressing rather obviously ( Oh MY! They got six months alone in Shurano Country! I think I just deafened my mom when I saw the drool-worthy images of Kurogane and Fai in their Yasha soldier outfits XD )

CHAPTER 112 = LOVE. I completely ADORE the fact that the only one who sees through Fai's fake smiles and sunny demeanor and being the first one who notices that something is troubling Fai is Kurogane! Am I deluded to think that the KuroFai hints is almost canon in Tsubasa? After all, Mokona keeps referring them as "Kuro-daddy!" and "Fai-mommy!" See? We don't even need to throw M-Preggies for them, they already have their own children to be taken care of - Namely Syaoran and Sakura since in TRC they're both orphans and who would be the best paternal and maternal figure for them? Kuro-pon and Fai-nyanko, no doubt!

CHAPTER 121+122 = ANGST GALORE. OH MY SHIZNIT, CLAMP AND THEIR TWISTED, INGENIOUS, BRILLIANT BRAIN! I am currently having a love-hate relationship with them - Loving them for providing the fanservices and angst but hating them for torturing Fai and making the cliffhangers T^T!! So the Syaoran who has been journeying with them is the Clone!Syaoran who is supposedly evil, and the good, real Syaoran is the one inside the tube in Fei Wong Reed's place?! WHO WOULD HAVE QUESSED?! *insert some more incoherent,hysterical screams here*

SYAORAN, WHAT THE HELL? GIVE BACK FAI'S EYE ;______;! All of us have been waiting for Fai to finally use his magic, and you just ATE it..and haphazardly used his graceful magic?! I never thought that it is possible to be angry at Syaoran but seriously he needs to be slapped with a dead fish, LIEK, NOW! Well, the only thing that prevent all Fai fangirls rampaging all the way to CLAMP's residence in Japan and killing Syaoran unmercifully is the HUGE amount of KuroFai-ness that comes together with the angst. Kurogane goes berserk when he sees Fai lay bleeding in his own pool of blood *SNIFFS* and pretty much ready to kill clone!Syaoran - He even breaks clone!Syaoran's arm by throwing him in a fit of rage to the wall and screams bloody murders at clone!Syaoran about how Fai has changed himself for them, even willing to use his magic just so clone!Syaoran and Sakura can smile THAT AND KURO-WAN SHIELDS FAI FROM THE EXPLOSIONS MADE BY BY CLONE!SYAORAN, NEVER STOPS HOLDING FAI PROTECTIVELY AND LOVINGLY IN THIS TWO CHAPTER! DON'T LET HIM GO KUROGANE! LET THE REAL!SYAORAN HANDLE THE CLONE!SYAORAN WHILE YOU AND FAI HAVE A NICE HURT&COMFORT SMEXY MOMENTS!

The angst is trying to killing us from inside! Suddenly it's like Tokyo Babylon and X/1999 all over again, but then they're currently in X world, so a huge amount of angst is mandatory, then? But WUH? Why is Kamui just sitting there and looking pretty? ~~and Kakyou just looks bored. Both of them seriously need popcorns~~ I thought that the "vampire twins" Seishirou speaks of when meeting Syaoran-tachi were Subaru and Hokuto, but CLAMP threw us off again by revealing that the twins here are Kamui and Subaru. DOES CLAMP HAVE AN EYE FETISH OR WHAT, with all this "poke a single eye out and shove them into another person's eye socket" stuffs? Fai will be pretty even without one eye, but we prefer Fai with both eyes intact >______>!

5 things that you WILL find in all CLAMP's works :
1.) One eyed pretty bishounens
2.) Sakura petals flying everywhere
3.) Talks about "fate" and "destiny"
4.) ANGST
5.) ~~Subtle and vague~~ Obvious YAOI and YURI hints ~~and buttsecks~~

This official picture totally annihilates the possibility of Fai being straight ( WHAT?! Fai = straight?! You're shitting me! Fai is gayer than every characters of Gravitation combined together! ) :

And here people are wondering why there are so many amount of Kuro/Fai and Ashura/Fai fics in the fandom? PAH, I am really curious to see Fai's back story in Tsubasa, I hope that we wouldn't have to wait for 100++ chapters for them since we just got Kurogane backstory and CLAMP said that Tsubasa will even be longer than X/1999. I wonder what kind of past relationship Fai has with Ashura? ~~JUST AS I THOUGHT, THEY'RE SLEEPING TOGETHER!~~ What did Ashura do to Fai? Turning from a wise, kind king to a cruel tyrant by some twist of fate, being obsessed with Fai, raped him and made Fai seal him? It's obviously a very intimate relationship, since I ever saw one of the splash page with the text, "What's reflected behind those eyes? A cruel king, or a loving companion?" We don't know much about Ashura in Tsubasa, but judging from his characterization in RG Veda, he is not evil although he is willing to sacrifice everything for the sake of his wish and kinda self-centered. All the things we've gathered from the series only pointed out that Fai is deathly afraid of him and keeps regretting+angsting over it.

After watching Tsubasa the Anime....THE ANIME PRODUCER AND ALL THE STAFFS SHOULD HAVE THEIR INNER ORGANS GOUGED OUT IN ALPHABETICAL ORDERS AND BE THROWN INTO A RIVER FULL OF PIRANHAS! How dare they insert annoying fillers into the anime and cutting all the Kuro/Fai hints together with the "Kuro-daddy" and "Fai-mommy" thingy pulled by Mokona?! *hands twitching in rage* They're turning it into a big het parade! BLASPHEMY!!!! The only reason why I am even bothering to follow the anime is only because I love Kurogane and Fai so much and their awesome OSTs.

.....Kurogane/Fai and Tsubasa:Reservoir Chronicle are currently threatening to wrestle my soul back from Sasuke/Naruto and Naruto fandom...HELP! HELP! X___X

Augh. Not enough time to rant because I need more sleep...Can't believe that I missed three chapters of Naruto this week! Have to download them next morning as soon as I drag myself out from bed!

Jakarta, here I come! Oh noes, one week without ranting?!

Mon, 03 Jul 2006 16:16:31 GMT

[mood : lonely]
[music : Valenti - BoA]

A shoutout to Kristy, Rhee, and everyone who reads this journal :
I'LL BE LEAVING FOR JAKARTA TOMORROW MORNING FOR ONE WEEK! I PROMISE I'LL COME BACK BEARING GIFTS AND MORE NARUTO STUFFS! Kristy, and Rhee, I have received your comment replies, but unfortunately I can't answer right now because Mom is currently screaming in my ear to get an early sleep because we'll take the morning flights tomorrow. I don't give replies not because I don't love you! Wait for my return, my lovelies ♥ ♥ ♥ !

I'll Miss You All!

Doodle Attack Part 3 (CRACK ALERT! CRACK ALERT!)

Tue, 27 Jun 2006 19:43:08 GMT

[mood : accomplished]
[music : Confidence for Quiet - The Corrs]

Short Naruto Chapter 312 Fangirling : OH.MY.GOD. Fuck, If Kishimoto-san draws more hot Akatsuki bishies, I doubt that my eyes will stay on its sockets....Hell yeah for Hidan and Kakuzu!

If you don't know about the new Akatsuki members that are introduced in Chapter 312, you may not wish to view the first two doodles ( Which are nothing but crack with Akatsuki!Naruto and why me and Kristy think that Hidan, one of the new Akatsuki member has a very slutty attitude XD ) I cannot guarantee the quality of the first two doodles because they're crack and crack does not need to be throughly done, right?

Don't ask why Naruto is there wearing an Akatsuki cloak, since I already said in past posts that all my doodles are inspired by the fic I am working on where Naruto and Sai joins the rank of Akatsuki ^_~

Part One :

Oh no, Hidan, it's a wrong move! Itachi is taken by the chibi pouting Naruto, and he is a seme so you can't top him! Don't ask why I give Hidan a sparkling smile and an obsession to roses...talking frankly, Hidan looks like a porn star ( No offense for Hidan fans, in fact I am one of his fangirls now! ) with all the smug smirk and the open chest....However, Hidan quickly learns from his mistake and choose a target that is a certified uke....

Part Two :

...but unfortunately, in the end Hidan has to run for his life for Sasori is planning to cascrate him afterwards. Itachi and Naruto make a wise decission to leave before the natural disaster gets a chance to happen.

And the third doodle that killed my hands so I will not be able to make a doodle again anytime soon, Akatsuki!Naruto in kimono~

In that Akatsuki!Naruto fic, Leader-sama loves to dress Naruto up in many pretty kimonos, and so I decided to draw the first part of Naruto in kimono ( More will be coming soon...aren't you feel afraid yet of the craziness :P? ) I stole my grandma's kimono to draw this ~~BUT DON'T TELL HER THAT~~ Not all kimono has symmetrical motives. This one is red-coloured in the left-side, the printed flowers and weeds are in gold colour while the right part of kimono is black-coloured. However, the obi follows the color of the left-side, which is golden with little bits of red patch ^__^!

And now I must try to draw the scenes from the fic...after my hands stop twitching and protesting from overwork T^T

Doodle Attack Part Two

Mon, 26 Jun 2006 17:12:45 GMT

[mood : working]
[music : A True Light - DN Angel OP Theme]

Guh...what's wrong with our Electric Power Company? This is the seventh time in three weeks we had blackouts from morning until afternoon T^T!! But the weird thing is, whenever a blackout happens, I always sit on my bedroom brooding and eventually reminded of my Naruto daily rants and fangirling with Kristy-san and BAM! Inspiration strikes me O.O ;;! ( So Kristy, I blame the overpopulation of my drawing bunnies on you XP! )

Here are some of the results of SasuNaru doodles I did in the dark while waiting for the lights to come again ( I am not sure if they're worth viewing because they're done in a very horrible rush and I have absolutely none drawing skills ) :

A somewhat AU-ish SasuNaru doodle :

Sasuke pulling Naruto down for the kiss ♥ Dunno why I got the image in my head...Here I sit wondering why I only can draw Sasuke as a happy seme since I always write Bastard!Mean!Sadistic!Seme!Sasuke, but...ouch! I have to learn how to draw mean!evil!Sasuke since I want to draw Sasuke from my Akatsuki!Naruto fic ;__; ( And why the hell I am using so many emoticons today? )

The future is bright, the future is SasuNaru ^__^!

From now on I think I'll stay faithful to my drawing pencils - I like the result more if done by them instead by my inking pen...It hates me and it always dies after I ink someone's hair *pouts* So, until I get decent drawing/art supplies after I move to our capital city two months again, I'll rely on you, drawing pencils!

Akatsuki!Naruto doodles are coming out tomorrow~ *hands are currently dead from doodling too much piccies today*

Aaaah! Finally! dances happily

Mon, 19 Jun 2006 17:12:34 GMT

[mood : ecstatic]

I PASSED ♥!

WOOHOO! *jumps in joy* WE MADE IT! All of the people in our class passed the Highschool Final Exams! And gues what?! FOUR OF FIVE TOP GRADUATING STUDENT ARE MY CLASSMATES! Oh my, congratulations, Yanti, Gemilang, Handry, and Henro ♥ ♥ This is also the first time in our school's history that someone got a perfect 100 % score for Anthropology Test O___O! OH HOLY CRAP, How the hell you managed to remember everything from our super thick textbooks, Yanti? ( See what I mean when I said that I have a problem in confidence department because I am surrounded by many talented people XD? )

We got overly ecstatic and danced in joy when our teacher announced that everyone from our class passed with satisfying result - I was grabbed, tossed, and twirled around by the person that stood nearest to me >3 Heh, we pretty much went crazy at that moment, but rest assured, I did not vandalize my school uniform, since mom said that she would pack all of them tomorrow to be donated to all the children who are victims from the earthquake and can't go to school because they have no uniforms...

Nadya's Final Exam Result ( I should say that they exceed my expectations, because I thought I flunked English and Economy, but my parents were overly ecstatic when discovering them ^___^! ) :
Indonesian Language Test.......84%
Economy Test...................81%
English Languange Test.........90%

I really don't know where the hell the English Language Test result came from, since I am convinced that if an English grammar NAZI ever find out this journal...I will most definitely be bitchslapped to death O___O And THANK YOU VERY MUCH for all the people who wished me good luck ^______^! I love you all forever and ever!

Now this calls for a little celebrating - I shall produce something to celebrate my graduation? Hmm...some fic or doodle, maybe? But I am still stuck at my current ones ;____;

And I was rewarded with....a bowl of watermelon when I got home XD.

...Tomorrow Equals Armageddon?

Sun, 18 Jun 2006 17:27:17 GMT

[mood : nervous]
[music : Temujin - Naruto Movie 2 OST]

OH NOES THE WOE.

...Tomorrow I am going to go receive the results of my HighSchool Final Exams. *prays to God and every deity up there* Let me graduate from the highschool, please let me graduate from highschool, please let me pass x__x! ~~unlike what the other thinks, highschool life = SHIT to me~~

...Please let me and my friends pass the exams!!!

Doodle Attack! ( Yes..I am still alive...and healthy O.O?! )

Sat, 17 Jun 2006 05:25:49 GMT

[mood : amused]
[music : Delicious Way - Mai Kuraki]

*gasps* Naruto fandom, what have you done to me?! I used to be too lazy to even draw a straight line, but after I started to get dreams about a particular Naruto fic and a few weeks ranting with my beloved Naruto Crack Queen Hardysmidgen, my drawing bunnies ate all my fic bunnies, thus these babies were born into the world :

WARNING! WARNING! There's something you need to know before you view these before you go, "WTF ARE YOU THINKING, NADYA?!" All of this doodles are inspired by a Naruto multi-chaptered fic I will work on, which comes out from a dream of mine. In that fic, one year after Chapter 310, Naruto and Sai desert Konoha and become missing-nins, in order to seek Sasuke's whereabouts due to Tsunade's unwillingness to send them missions to save Sasuke from Orochimaru. Naruto makes a big decission and both of them meet Itachi and Kisame in their journey, conveying them the news that Leader-sama from Akatsuki would like them to join their ranks, and so in this fic, both Naruto and Sai become Akatsuki partners to eachother. The pairing? ItaNaru in the beginning, Eventual SasuNaru in the end, and one-sided protective love on Sai's part. Starting today, I'll spam this LJ with many piccies I doodled from random images from that fic, so RUN! Run as fast as you can before you're traumatized by my crazyness! and have mercy on my non-existant drawing skill T__T!

For celebrating dear Itachi's birthday on June 9 :

Me : *snickers* Someone's jealous in that pic....
Sai : Hey - I am all about preserving the bonds between Sasuke and Naruto! Do you expect me to just watch him seduce Naruto away?!
Itachi : It's my birthday, I can do *anything*!

Me : I wish Itachi would stop scowling...just for one day?
Naruto : How about drawing a continuation from this doodle? Oh, sorry..I forget that your inking pen died after wrestling with It-chan's hair!
Me : Now I better go before anyone throw many sharp, pointy objects at me for making that chibi Itachi on the side!

And now, a short Naruto Chapter 311 Fangirling :

OMG IN CHAPTER 311, SAI = TEH ADORABLE ♥ These pages alone are able to make this chapter worth downloading, aside from the scene where Naruto angsts over Sasuke's last words ;____; POOR NARU BABY! Oh how I wish Sasuke would just get over it and screw him senseless...

I love Adobe Photoshop ♥ And ZOMGWTF what will happen next chapter?! All the Naruto characters keep implying the obvious SasuNaruness, with Kakashi in the end of this chapter saying, "I have thought of this training method to get to Sasuke...and Naruto, this training involves you, and can be done only by you..in the end, you will surpass even me"

....Does that 'training method' you speak so fondly of involve "The 100 Methods to Seduce your Seme", Kakashi O___O?

*runs away from the sharp pointy objects thrown at her*

Mon, 05 Jun 2006 15:48:40 GMT

[mood : bitchy]
[music : Arigatou - Kyou Kara Maou 2nd Ed Theme]

*HEADDESKS REPEATEDLY*

I feel like I am going to die from brain aneurysm anytime now. I am not really upset about anything. Maybe it's just my boring holidays finally succeeded in driving me nuts. Sure, holidays are fun, but it wouldn't be that fun anymore if you are waiting for the results of your final examns in 19 th June. I can distract myself by going out, but the question is, where to go?

I hate living in this fucking small city. I still can get healty supplies of anime, although it usually arrives late in the month. Hell, you can even compare the shopping malls in my city with the minimarkets in yours. One thing I hate the most from the bookstores here : Tons, and I mean, tons of trashy teenager love novels scattered in the display window.

What the-- Okay, I love overused plots because I think it's fun seeing many different stories sprouting out from the same basic plot, but I mean, when I really searched from something neatly written in English to read in the bookstore, all I get to find is twenty titles of highschool love novels written in Indonesian languange portraying a "lame" heroine in school who eventually falls in love with some random "cool guys", then some female antagonist appear to steal the aforementioned cool guy, and then another guy appears and declare his undying love to the supposedly lame heroine. And then the cool guy would realize that the one he truly loves is this lame heroine, pull out some romantic words, and TA DAH! They live waffily ever after.

Yes, you heard me right. Twenty novels. All with the same plot and the same development of story. Lying next to eachother in the display window.

Can our book publisher be more idiot?

Also, brain - what happened to you? You have a lot of plotbunnies, but how come you won't give me any ideas of how to stick it together? No writing block, please. I don't know what to do anymore if you refuse to work with me. I almost died from boredom and fandom irks here.

*has to stop surfing around the net for 12 hours per day after realizing that she is practically blind and turning into a semi-vampire thingy because sunlights sting her eyes*

Tue, 30 May 2006 17:53:37 GMT

[mood : anxious]
[music : Nami Kaze Satellite - Naruto OP Theme]

...Another one that sprouted out from my rant with Hardysmidgen. It was accidental, I swear >__>! EXTRA WARNING : Don't read if you don't want to be bored to death, no sex, no kissing, no sensual touches, probably the most boring ficcie ever Nadya ever created, doesn't make any sense, really bad grammar, blah de blah.

Title : But My Harbor is Nowhere
Rating : PG for really subtle hints
Warning(s) : OOC-ness, hints of yaoi
Summary : Sasuke and Naruto, the seagull and its harbor [Hinata-centric]

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In the age of sixteen, Hyuuga Hinata learned that not every heart gains happiness when it flies (And happiness is fleeting, just like love and everything else once seen from her bloodline limit - Byakugan)

Once, she had stood in equal grounds with Ino and Sakura. Time passed away and their childhood crushes were lost (One left for his crusade for power, leaving the destruction and desperation in another's longing blue eyes on his wake), but now she found herself staring at their venerable backs, and Hinata realized that she had been alone all along, even when they were right beside her ("If I love, I'll hurt as much as I love", she whispered softly to herself as she sealed her feeling inside a Pandora box, the key thrown away, rusty and abandoned).

Hinata was the silent observer, falling insensibly into the habit of watching people passed and pacing restlessly at night from the foyer and Hyuuga compound garden, ignoring Father's dissaproving and chilly glare at her back. The Byakugan saw everything, from the smallest flicker of emotion in people's eyes to the way the enemy's chakra flared in their body and moving in intricate patters before she struck the blows to the Chakra spots, preventing them to spread throughout the body.

Hinata loved watching people at night - the sunlight was sometimes too bright and it stung her eyes, glaring mightly at the creatures it gave the light to. Night was more friendly to its inhabitants, and Hinata found out that shinobi or not, people always showed their true nature at night, unafraid of the revelation of their faces and idle pursuits. They never noticed her leaning casually against the sliding door, creamy white eyes shone with hidden curiousity and childish fascination (She knows those people by heart now, just like she knows the way her teammates would give each other hungry looks and longing stares when they thought no one was watching).

And Hinata was the most ecstatic person in Konoha at the day Naruto and the renewed Team Seven were back from the mission to investigate the Tenchi Bridge, even when everyone were muttering and whispering exitedly at each other that the Uchiha Sasuke was back. She went as far as asking Kurenai-sensei to give a one-day off from training, her white eyes focused solemnly on the dirt ground until Kurenai-sensei gave her an encouraging pat on her shoulder, and their sensei's crimson eyes shot Kiba and Shino a withering look ("Oh, I get it already! You guys want to see them too, right? What are you waiting for? Go!").

It was night when the legendary Rookie Nine finally reunited again. All of them had been trained to expect the unexpected, but she never expected this. She never expected her long-time crush to appear in a limping form, pink marks blossoming in his frail neck, the sun-tanned wrist marked by angry purple bruises and burn marks, one of them stood like a sore thumb around his wrist. Hinata had seen many bruises not too unlike those from her constant visit to Konoha Hospital during the time Shino or Kiba were seriously wounded during one of their dangerous missions, and she knew people didn't get them from battles.

From the looks the others gave to the seemingly obnoxious Naruto, neither of them had expected this too. Chouji stopped munching on his potato chips, Ino dropped the bouquet of sunflowers she had clutched tightly to her chest seconds ago, Shikamaru and Neji-nii san looked murderous while the others merely stood in a zombie-like state, unable to comprehend a single sentence. The atmosphere suddenly turned ten times colder as behind the blonde, a tall, brooding shadow of Uchiha Sasuke loomed, reminding her of the mighty magnolia tree in the Hyuuga compound garden (It is strong and robust, and it proctects them from storms and heavy rains). The raven-haired Uchiha didn't even bother to greet his old comrades with his trademark 'Hn' (His tomoe eyes were laughing and smirking at them, but she knew that it was pointed mainly towards her, "You only want what you couldn't have, Hyuuga.")

All of them walked home silently.

Safely tucked inside her house, Hinata walked silently to the foyer (and she could hear the cracking sounds the tatami-covered floor made under her weight, as the Hyuuga main house was as old as the Konoha history itself). The compound garden was a sanctuary, and moreso because this particular night was a fullmoon. And she waited, because she knew they would come and pass the dusty, abandoned street ahead - Uchiha compound was next to the Hyuuga's.

An old memory resurfaced from her pools of thought, and she let herself lulled by them while waiting.

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"Ara, Hinata-chan, what are you doing here?", Mom asked her curiously, her crane-like fingers cradling baby Hanabi to her bosom, rocking the sleeping baby inside the bundle back and forth, back and forth, while looking wistfully at the garden. The magnolia tree was astoundingly beautiful during the the time of the year, and the five-year old Hinata half-expected a water nymph to come out from their calm pond to sing together with Mom in such a perfect day.

"Kaa-san, I cannot sleep..", Hinata tilted her small head shyly to take a peek at her baby sister. Hinata never understood why her mother always looked deathly sick, her skin devoid of any healthy colors until she learned later about the innermarry tradition of Hyuuga Clan ("Dad, why is mom not breathing?").

Mom's milky white eyes were laughing softly at her as she motioned a servant girl nearby to come and pass the sleeping Hanabi to her. She beckoned Hinata to come closer with a nod of her head, and Hinata moved to sit in her comfy lap, "Do you want Kaa-san to tell you a bed-time story, dear?"

She nodded eagerly, and Mom laughed heartily. Mom's stories were always comforting and fascinating, and she remembered all of them by heart.

'Once upon a time, in a peaceful coast, a lone seagull lived. There used to be many of its kin living in that place, but one day a bad human came and slaughtered all the other seagulls, so only the lone seagull remained. A wise, kind dolphin took pity in the lone seagull's state and told him that there was a harbor near the coast, and there were many other seagulls living there.'

Hinata blinked. Mom exhaled.

'And so the lone seagull came to the harbor, but he distanced himself from another seagulls - they reminded him too much of his slaughtered kins, and they showed him the spectres of its dead family. However, the harbor welcomed him warmly, gave him a place to stay, and slowly mending the broken pieces of the lone seagull's heart. The seagull stayed. But one day, an evil sea serpent came, and everthing changed.'

Here Mom paused and gave Hinata's tiny hands a gentle squeeze.

'The evil sea serpent, being the vile and wicked creature it was, lied to the seagull with its poisonous words. It gave the seagull empty promises of freedom and told him stories of a paradise across the ocean. Intrigued and charmed, the seagull decided to leave the harbor, which had given him nothing but warmth and a place to stay. The other creatures tried to stop and warned him of the notoriously known sea serpent. Even the harbor plead for him not to leave - it asked, "Dear, why do you want to leave me? Is my love and warmth not good enough for you?" But the plea went ignored as the seagull answered, "You don't have a thing I am searching for. You offer me nothing." The seagull flew across the ocean to follow the sea serpent, and the harbor wept its lost everyday.'

Hinata squirmed and protested meekly, "But Kaa-san, there are many other seagulls living in the harbor! It won't feel lonely anymore!" but Mom only let out a stifled laugh and continued to fondle her figure, "This one seagull is special for the harbor, Hinata-chan. No creature can replace its place."

'Years passed, and the seagull was tired. He had travelled everyday with the sea serpent, but no paradise came into their sight, until one day the seagull found out that he had been tricked by the sea serpent all the time, it went furious and left. But he was lost in the vast ocean, trying desperately each day to find its harbor. When he did find it, the other creatures snarled at him, "Go away, you are not welcome here anymore." The harbor told them to stop harrasing the seagull, and asked it, "Dear, what happened to you? Looking exhausted and weary like that...why did you come back? I cannot offer anything at you." It added bitterly. The seagull was silent for a long time before it replied, "Because you're the place I truly belong to, you're my last harbor." '

By the time Mom finished her story, Hinata had already fallen asleep soundly.

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The sounds of footsteps echoing in the dark street alerted her, and Hinata opened her fully-developed Byakugan eyes, penetrating the darkness to see at the corner of the street, where two figures were approaching - one was trying to keep up with the other's longer stride. Basking in the silvery streams of moonlight, Naruto looked like the moon deity itself, his carefree fingers linked with Sasuke's, the sky blue eyes that Hinata adored so much twinkling with silent laugher. Compared to him, Sasuke looked surreal and transparent, but even a blind Hyuuga could see the possesiveness and love in the Uchiha's admiring gaze at the blonde, and she kept watching as their figures dissapeared down the street.

"Kaa-san, I wish the seagull would never leave its harbor again.", Her voice was hollow and barely above a whisper, and only a soft whoosh of wind answered back as the golden-red leaves of the magnolia tree in their autumn glory fell into the pond.

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There were times when the overwhelming urge to pound and push the Uchiha away from Naruto came back to her, especially when they spotted more bluish-purple bruises in Naruto's arms in the morning, but it was quickly taken care of by Sakura, who often gave Naruto a knowing and pained smile as her dexterious hands moving swiftly to apply the healing cream on the bruises.

"Don't cry, Hinata-sama. No one blames you for loving him." Neji once told her, his fists balled tightly at both of his sides, his anger at the way Uchiha Sasuke treated their precious friend barely contained.

And here she tiredly lifted her face up, pearly tears adorned her round face, and when their gazes met, she instantly knew that at least she shared a same thing with her Neji-nii san - a feeling towards the same blonde who was already claimed by someone else.

The Byakugan never failed to see underneath the underneath.

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A/N : And it was done horribly when I was barely awake x__x I experinced with our poor Hinata-chan ~~AND Z0MG HERE I AM STARING IN HORROR, SHE DOESN'T EVEN BLUSH AND STUTTER IN THIS ONE!~~

Moving to the next project - ShinoKiba ( BUGSEX, HERE I COME 0:! )

Sun, 28 May 2006 16:58:06 GMT

[mood : accomplished]

OhShit. This is what happens when my prayers went unheard and my hands moved on it's own. Totally un-edited, un-betaed, beware of OOC-ness, and um...first attempt on SasuNaru? ( Don't throw forks at me, I haven't written a single fic since three years ago )

Title : Give Him the Pleasure
Rating : PG-13 for implied adultery
Warning(s) : Yaoi, failed attempt at angst, 306-307 spoilers, a little bit of voyeurism(?), bad grammar ( English is my 3rd languange ) and....OOC-ness?
Summary : It's about the time you learn that resistance is futile when you find yourself paralyzed in his embrace. [Sasuke/Naruto, implied one sided hint of Sai/Naruto]

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// Why are you so weak? Why can't you protect anyone? //

Naruto had never faced a worst nightmare turn into reality (Close, but only once, in a green, lush forest where everything was crumbling down and wicked demons writhing at his feet as he clutched a fallen friend whose pale limbs were twisted in impossible angles and a mop of unruly bright red hair was visible, but that was an entirely different story). He struggled to stand, harsh breathing mingled with pained whimpers and exquisite blue eyes dimmed for a second - tired of both keeping an inner demon's chakra at bay and fighting a losing battle with his exhausted limbs.

Across him, Sakura and Yamato had long since lost their consciousness, sinking to sweet oblivion (No, no they're still breathing, Naruto tries to convince himself, relief mixing with dread). A few deep, bloody gashes marred Yamato's shoulder, Sakura was sprawled unconscious under a huge rock as a result of being slammed roughly into the cold grounds, a few huge craters surrounded the place she was currently laying, indicating that she had fought will all the strength she had acquired during her training with the Godaime ("Next time, I'll be the one who protects both of you. So don't worry, Naruto. We'll bring him back"). And Naruto felt proud of her - Sakura had kept their promise and she had grown strong in her own way while her precious Team Seven was scattered.

But something was definitely wrong - something, or somebody was certainly missing. The grounds smelled of ash and death and blood and the fragments of pride he felt of Sakura was completely gone, leaving him vulnerable and alone (A lone weeping willow, the lone survivor of a merciless storm), replaced by the strong claws of anxiety that clutched on his heart. Hearing a rustle of movement behind him, he whipped his head up and there were the sounds of kunai clashing against something deadly that glimmered under the scorching sun and a blood curling scream followed by a sickening THUD-

"Sai?! Sai! Are you okay?!"

Naruto didn't realized that he was screaming it out loud before it was too late - two pairs of burning, identical coal eyes snapped at his direction. One was clouded with pain and was that....desperation? worry? etched into the surface. The other pair of eyes remained impassive, almost apathetic - but look closer, and Naruto found himself drowning in the depth of Sasuke's eyes. A flicker of something akin to annoyance was clear within them at the desperation and concern laced within his scream upon seeing the replacement impaled by the Kusanagi sword.

"Hmph. A replacement can never be as perfect as the real one." Sasuke drawled, half-smirking, half-scowling while his eyes raked in the fallen boy's battered form, the metal blade of Kusanagi embedded dangerously close to its prey's heart.

Sai narrowed his eyes, trying to not choke on his own blood and ignoring the blinding pain (It was the second time he tasted the Chidori current through the cold blade and he felt like something was going to gouge his veins out). The words were soft spoken, barely audible and meant for him only and the only one who could recognize the hidden meaning behind it was only him.

"Do you think you can replace my place in his team, in his heart? This Naruto is made by me, and will stay MINE."

Sai wanted to scream, he wanted to scream at Naruto desperately (RUN, runrunrunrun! The mission has failed, and he is going to hurt you in the ways you never thought possible!), but only a gurgling noise escaped from his lips, splattering the cold grounds beneath him with the specks of blood as the Uchiha prodigy abruptly pulled out the Kusanagi from his flesh and his attention was once more focused on a lithe form of the blonde standing only a few meters from them, blue eyes widened with shock and tanned limbs were limping from the aftershock of the early battle.

Sasuke glanced for the last time at Sai, a look of cold indifference and utter disgust marred his frown, "I will take back what's mine. Give your Hokage my thanks for delivering him here."

Sai's usually emotionless face was twisted in agony due to the pain residing in his chest (And despite his efforts, he knew he wouldn't be able to get up and the sudden feeling of nausea engulfed him as he finally understood what the Uchiha truly meant by his words).

In a flash, before all of them could even blink, Naruto found himself pinned to the barren earth below, an arm coiled possesively around him (Whyohwhy his hands are so cold?) and he found himself staring up at harsh black eyes, once lively with a fierce determination, sometimes bleeding crimson with three extra commas. Suddenly Naruto felt that he was a thirteen years old boy again, the scenery distorted into familiar statues at the Valley of the End, and he was staring at the old Sasuke, clutching desperately at his dark blue shirt and screaming for all his worth (begging,pleading?) for Sasuke to stay, for Sasuke to abandon the foolish destiny of an avenger ("I have no future, my present has dissapeared as well, I live only for the past").

Naruto was roughly slammed back to reality when Sasuke's trained, callous fingers were tracing the smaller boy's jaw, cold lips roughly kissing exposed neck, and Naruto was paralyzed again in Sasuke's embrace.

// Why? Why even after two and a half years of separation, you only feel whole when you're right beside him? //

No, no this isn't happening, Naruto tried to fight back, trashing, clawing, and kicking, but Sasuke's grip was iron-like, and Naruto's futile attempts only brought an amused smile to Sasuke's face, and for the umpteenth time in his life he felt helpless - All the pent-up emotions he buried deeply in the hearts of his inner heart (The desperation, the wanting to feel, to taste, and his heart was thundering inside his chest since Sasuke's ivory fingers were still tracing his jawline sensually) were threatening to explode. Naruto wanted so much to punch the smug face, to pummel him to the ground and scream at Sasuke for making him feel incomplete all these times, and yet...he knew he needed this - he needed Sasuke to hold him like this, because Sasuke's embrace and kisses were rough and dominating and it helped Naruto to remember who he truly belongs to.

Sasuke must had noticed the sudden change in Naruto's expression by the way his elegant eyebrow arched and a dangerous smirk tugging on his lips. With a rough jerk, Sasuke brought their face closer and hungrily kissed the soft petal lips, eagerly ravishing everything he can taste before biting roughly at the unsuspecting blonde's lower lip, delving his tongue deeper into Naruto's waiting wetness. Sasuke was a bit surprised when Naruto started kissing back a bit hesitantly, their tongues entwining, tasting and moving in a sensual dance reserved only for them. When they pulled back and break the kiss due to the need of oxygen, there was a strange feeling of satisfaction in Sasuke's part that the kiss was dominated by him, and Naruto didn't struggle anymore. Naruto's face was heavily flushed by the force of the kiss, and Sasuke unconsciously licked his lips, hands ripping the offending materials of Naruto's pants and orange-black jumpsuit, tasting and biting roughly at the exposed, sun-tanned body - This was one of those times when he gave up the control to the lust and the need to claim what was rightfully his.

Naruto was suddenly aware that he was only wearing his black boxers and he suddenly remembered that they were not alone in the spot. Biting his already swollen lips, he tilted his head to another side and froze when he saw Sai, lying in the pool of his own blood, glassy black eyes watching him and Sasuke intently, betraying no emotion (No, No! Was that an accusing gaze? Or a pitying one?)

"Let him watch. This is the last time he gets to see you anyway." Sasuke's sultry and commanding voice forced him to look at Sasuke once more, and then he realized that it was a big mistake as now he shivered under the Uchiha's predatory gaze, his boxers were gone now and he could feel his blood pumping to the southern region of his body as Sasuke drank in the sight of a nude, lithe form beneath him.

"I'm going to take you with me to Orochimaru," Sasuke's fingers were ghosting over, fumbling and silently discarding his white haori, the sheathed sword of Kusanagi were thrown carelessly aside (And a nervous feeling settled inside Naruto's stomach. "Is this really the best way for both of us? There is no returning back!" , and his fate had been sealed since he locked heated gazes with Sasuke at Orochimaru's lair).

"Isn't this what you've always wanted? You can stay beside me...forever." Sasuke's voice was strangely calm and soothing, like a gentle breeze on a bright summer day before the storm strikes.

Naruto's eyes fluttered close as his legs were being spread apart and lifted to Sasuke's broad, pale shoulders. He knew what was going to happen next, he knew that when he woke up he couldn't return to Konoha anymore, he knew that his pain is Sasuke's thrill, and he knew that despite it all, he would always love Sasuke.

Unknown to him, a flicker of emotion emerged from the pool of Sasuke's lust-clouded black orbs, went noticed only by Sai who recognized it immediately before it was completely gone.

In the end, Sai gave the copulating boys one last wry smile.

// It looks like I was right after all ne, Naruto-kun? He does love you. //

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A/N : Don't ask what happened to Sai and Naruto afterwards, ask my hand! *hand waves innocently* I gave them their own happy endings, right? RIGHT?

Phew, there!Spot a grammar mistake? Tell me and let me know how to fix it >__> *is shameless* Okay, going to bed now and let my brother raid the computer....

Sun, 28 May 2006 09:07:23 GMT

....Can someone please nail my brain to the wall? Pretty, pretty please?

To brain : For the love of GOD, please stop showering me with plot bunnies - I don't fucking know how to write it down.

*prays for brainstorming*

Fanservice Overload! Fanservice Overload!

Fri, 26 May 2006 13:42:21 GMT

[mood : bouncy]
[music : Oh, ENKA! - Naruto OST]

*clear throat* First, I want to say that I feel incredibly happy that I'm not the only one that noticed this particular page is disturbingly erotic ^_~ :

Daisysyndrome : HOSHIT SAI STOPS SASUKE'S "SWORD" FROM FALLING TO NARUTO! It's fanservice! Fanservice because Naruto is MANSANDWICHED between them! ( And Sasuke's hand is still on his shoulder in a sort of possesive-sensual manner ) I was like, "Holy crap! That position is so suggestive!" There aren't many dialogues in this chapter between Sasuke and Naruto, but hell, their gestures is enough! I'm now on to Sasuke VS Sai Showdown to get Naruto's heart ( Sasuke will get the winning prize, of course, but it's about the time he realizes that his prey has attracted many unwanted predator! ) Notice how close Sasuke and Naruto's proximity! Is Sasuke inhaling Naruto's scent there and cuddling Naruto for himself there?! He seems reluctant to let go ( And yes, Naruto is the one who break the fangirl moment by flipping over and trying to wrestle Sasuke's arm, see the picture below )

Hardysmidgen : OMG I KNOW! I was trying to think coherently, but my heart was pounding and my mind was screaming THREESOME, THREESOME! THREESOOOOOOOOOOME! I stopped trying to think after that and just let the wave of amazingness that was this chapter...amazingness isn't even a word, but oh well, 308 deserves having new words made up for it because Kishimoto defies language constructs. ^__^ Holy shiz, the Sai bent backward showing us gratituous abs and delectable arching? This chapter was so full of sex it's ridiculous! 0__0 Thank you Kishi...Thank you, Thank you THANK YOU!

Sai : INCLUDE ME TOO INTO THE ORGY ♥ !
Naruto : !!!!!
Sasuke : Hands off my bitch!
Sai : Oh, I'm sure we can *share* him...
Sasuke : NO, NO WE CAN'T.
Naruto : Don't I get any saying in this?!

The part when Naruto grabbed Sasuke's arm...am I the only one who see Sasuke's half-lidded eyes? NARUTO'S TOUCH TURNS HIM ON?! To SasuSaku fans - there's liek, no interraction between them both! 306-307-308 is exclusive for SasuNaru! Kishi-san loves us!! Oh God, I think I love this new Sasuke - he acts more like Itachi : calm, cold-blooded, absolutely ruthless, calculating, and confident. When Sasuke was still in Konoha, he was all about boasting his superiority and all-angsty while he still let his emotion control him - This new Sasuke doesn't talk big anymore, he *proves* it - he practically wipes the floor with the exhausted Team 7. I think Sasuke is now dead-set in avenging his clan, and there's going to be many blood, tears, and pain on Naruto's part to bring him back. I'm not even sure if Sasuke would want to return to Konoha if he *does* survive his final battle with Itachi - In the Valley of the End, even himself has said that after killing Itachi, he has no goal anymore.

But here comes Naruto's role in Sasuke's life : I seriously think Sasuke spared Naruto's life because he secretly wants to come back to Naruto in the end, because even if Naruto knows that Sasuke has changed, he'll still welcome Sasuke back with open arms. I'm now thankful to Kishimoto for creating Sasuke's Betrayal Arc - it adds more to the drama and unresolved feelings between them! I don't believe the fact that Sasuke has turned emotionless; in several frames in chapter 307, we get to see Sasuke staring at Naruto with someting akin to longing in his eyes, his emotionless looks are pointed toward the others, me thinks. And as if the fanservices and the implied raging declarations of love aren't enough, Kishimoto-san brought another plot twist in this chapter :

OH GOD, this chapter totally threw me off - SASUKE CAME INSIDE NARUTO! ~~pun intented~~ How the hell he did that?! Was it some version of Ino's Shintenshin? But it can't be, since Shintenshin's aim is to control the body instead of appearing in someone's inner heart. Or was it Sharingan? Then why Kakashi and Itachi didn't use it at Naruto? Wouldn't Itachi feel some sort of curiosity to take a peek at his prey's inner heart where the Kyuubi's cage in? Sasuke is ruthless to Sai, Yamato, and Sakura in this chapter, but don't you think he looks a bit....playful when the things are involved with Naruto? When Naruto's necklace that was given by Tsunade falls, Naruto struggles to defeat his inner demon and if Sasuke really wants to kill Naruto "on a whim", why doesn't he stab Naruto right there, like what he does to Yamato?

Daisysyndrome : In that picture, Sasuke's stance is almost....protective? In the previous frame, Kyuubi is ready to devour Naruto who refuses its help of power and raises his hand to block Kyuubi and then..SPAZ! Sasuke magically appear beside Naruto and when Naruto drops his hand in surprise, Sasuke raises his hand to block Kyuubi's foaming form? And the conversation between Kyuubi-Sasuke seems strange to me - Now that Sasuke knows what Itachi seeks in Naruto, why doesn't he just whisk Naruto away when all his teammates are in a weakened state? If he has Naruto in his hands, Itachi will come to him, right? ( It'd be like killing two birds with one stone, Naruto can be his winning prize! )

Hardysmidgen : To me, it looked like the Kyuubi was acknowledging him as more than an impressive fighter...as an impressive mate. God, Sasuke's tallness is just pwning everything! I couldn't believe how tiny he made Naruto seem. Naruto has looked so big and tall and strong up until this point and then Sasuke is like "Stare at my manly chest which offsets my usually feminine features and revel in my pirate dress!"

...The next chapter is totally unpredictable. Oooh, the list of things Sasuke can *DO* inside of Naruto....

Kishi-san, why must you torture us so?! Chapter 306-307-308 totally make us scream, "ZOMGWTFBBQ! WHERE THE FUCK IS THE NEXT CHAPTER?! GIMME, GIMME!" Or maybe it's the SasuNaru hints and interractions that turn us fangirls into a writhing mass of goo....

Ship Meme~!

Sun, 21 May 2006 11:35:08 GMT

[mood : indescribable]
[music : Sacrifice - Tatu]

...Because doing these kind of things often give me inspirations to write.

OTP ship: Sasuke/Naruto. I think I have stressed this enough ^^? I love this pairing even before I got addicted to Naruto fandom.

OT3 ship: Itachi/Naruto/Sasuke. Oh, you can't tell me they're not hot together.

Canon ship: Sasuke/Naruto. They're so canon that if someone asked me to sum up all the hints in the series I would end up splitting them to three huge-ass posts.

Not quite canon but should be ship: Sasori/Deidara. If you squint enough, the hints are all there.

If this happens I'll stab my eyes out with a spork ship: Sasuke/Sakura or Naruto/Hinata. Screw the spork, any blunt objects will do. *abhors them from the bottom of heart without knowing why*

You are one sick bastard ship: Iruka/Naruto. Can't stomach it even if my life depends to it. It's just...a big NO-NO for me.

I'm one sick bastard ship: Sandaime Kazekage/Sasori. Sasori says himself that Sandaime is his "favourite" ~~before Deidara comes~~. Makes a little sense, doesn't it?

I dabble a little ship: Lee/Sakura and Ino/Sakura. Personally I think all of them have grown out from their crushes, so why the hell not XP?

It's like a car crash ship: Kakashi/Iruka. It's like an accompanying set to Sasuke/Naruto. Everytime I try to create a plot to SasuNaru fics, I cannot help but add some KakaIru on it. Most of SasuNaru fics I read also have a piece of KakaIru lovin ^^;;

Tickles my fancy but not sold quite yet: Gaara/Naruto. Jinchuuriki love ♥

Makes no canon sense but why the hell not ship: Itachi/Naruto. I don't even know why I worship this pairing. It just hacked its way to my brain and produce its own bunnies there.

Everyone else loves it but I just don't feel it ship: Sasuke/Sakura. In my eyes, he doesn't acknowledge her - he only tolerates her.

When all is said and done ship: Sasuke/Naruto. Honestly, I think they only belong to each other. If Sasuke is a seagull, Naruto is his last harbor.

Guilty Pleasure ship: Itachi/Naruto. I'm not the only one who think that an Akatsuki!Naruto is hot, aren't I?

I can't believe I read it and liked it ship: Orochimaru/Jiraiya. Hardysmidgen, this is totally your fault. Yesterday I said that I hated Oro for all he stands for, but thanks to your rant concerning the insights to Oro's thoughts and past, now I see Oro in a whole new light ( But I still cannot forgive him for whisking Sasuke away from Naruto ). After our rants, I ran straight to FF.Net and read all OroJira fics I could find...and now I even have an OroJira plotbunny in my head! *is contemplating whether she should make a fic out of it or not*

Favorite Older/Younger ship : Orochimaru/Kabuto. That and I noticed somehow that Kabuto's eyes are awfully similar to Jiraiya's.

Favorite Devotionship: Zabuza/Haku. Only two arcs in Naruto can bring tears to my eyes - Wave Country Arc and Sasuke's Betrayal Arc.

Favorite Nevermetship: Sasori/Naruto. Yeah, they'll never meet, right :3?

Favorite Abuseship : Sasuke/Naruto and Itachi/Naruto. I seriously think both Uchihas are fucked up in the head, and Naruto has a hell of insecurity problem after the Time Jump to begin with. Canon-wise, I don't think any of the relationships I've mentioned above can be described as fluffy. Depressing and Angsty? Hell yes. I'm a firm believer that love needs darkness to grow, like a photo negative.

Favorite Rapeship : Sasuke/Naruto *is shot to the bottomless pit of hell*

Favorite Pervyship: Shino/Kiba. 'cause for no reason I think Shino is a closet pervert.

Favorite DominanceBattleship : Orochimaru/Jiraiya. One is a pedophile and one is a pervert. Who do you think will emerge as the winner?

'ships you created: Asuma/Hayate. Hell, I own the plotbunnies already - currently working on a fic for this baby :P

..Audio Crack? YES PLZ

Sat, 20 May 2006 14:05:02 GMT

[mood : OH GODS MY BRAIN]
[music : Gaara's Oiroke no Jutsu Part 2 - Naruto Nippon]

http://www.naruto-nippon.net/programme.php?s=oiroke

*brain explodes* If you haven't checked that site, then you must, you MUST go ahead and discover the wonderwul world of crack there. The site has a complete set of Naruto seiyuus doing Audio Crack ( The crack is enough to crack your skull, believe me ) Gaara has two parts in his Oiroke no Jutsu section..don't you want to hear Gaara in his Oiroke no Jutsu moaning, "Aaaaahn, Naruto-chan~ Teach me how to be a woman......♥" <--- ^$&*^%*&%%&(^%#!!!! ISHIDA AKIRA - STOP SOUNDING SO ORGASMIC, does your kickassness never cease? Kabuto's definitely my new baby now, his Oiroke no Jutsu voice is too funny! ( He pretends to be a sexy prostitute in a brothel OMGWTFBBQ! )

...Oiroke no jutsu!Neji hitting on Sasuke.

...Kiba's moaning is so lethal that I doubt anyone can hear it with a straight face.

...Orochimaru's love confession is the most disturbing thing ever I've heard in my life.

...Kabuto henge-ed as an Oba-Chan who goes shopping, saying : "OBA-CHAN NO PUNCH!!".

...And last but not least, Gaara henge-ed as a Holstein cow getting her udders squeezed.

I think I just woke up the entire neighbourhood laughing my butt off.

Naruto 307 Mandatory Fangirling

Fri, 19 May 2006 15:26:06 GMT

[mood : smug]
[music : Rock Lee's Theme - Naruto OST]

I'm currently worshipping the ground Kishimoto-san walks on now.

NARUTO CHAPTER 307 = FANGIRLGASMIC

SasuNaru Essay based on Chapter 307 by hardysmidgen

That page pretty much sums up everything why this chapter is a must-read for all rabid SasuNaru fangirls. Yes, me and hardysmidgen's SasuNaru rants and fangirling will be a regular occurence everytime a new chapter comes out starting from this week XD

The touch.The hug. THE WHISPERING-IN-THE-EAR PART.

HOLY POTATO, IT IS UCHIHA SASUKE WE'RE TALKING ABOUT, AND SINCE WHEN HE STARTS GETTING TOUCHY-TOUCHY AND HAS A HABIT TO MOLEST SOMEONE? *coughhackcoughNaruto* ~~prolonged exposure to Oro's perverted habit on Kabuto has a devastating effect on Sasuke! Not that I mind...~~

I only have one thing to say to the Yaoi-Basher Naruto dumbasses now : I think you all should dig a hole and live inside it forever now - Are you blind? Or brain-damaged? Or do you follow Naruto only to see Tsunade's gigantic boobs? Your preference is your preference, but can't you please stop posting in the forums about how yaoi is disgusting and "Ewww!!!" I don't fucking care if you bash yaoi in your private journal, but posting it on Naruto forums, where some yaoi fangirls can stumble upon it accidentally -it'll just make you sound more stupid and close-minded. Have you seen us, yaoi fangirls, screaming and flaming Naruto het writers around for writing het fics?

Wed, 17 May 2006 12:56:56 GMT

[mood : shippified ^__^!]
[music : No Boy no Cry - Naruto OP Theme]

I'M BACK ^___^!!! Pah, finally, the long-dreaded Final Exam days are over! ( Talking frankly, I don't think I can pass economy test -__-... )

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1. Uchiha Sasuke x Uzumaki Naruto
I am sorry for being crude, but if you can’t see the chemicals between them inside both anime and manga, I think you’re either fucked-up in the eyes or seriously in denial. You can’t argue over the fact that Sasuke’s betrayal brings the most biggest impact in Naruto’s life : He is left broken, incomplete and desperate. It’s clearly shown that both are each other’s most important person , and several characters have also hinted on it :
Haku [ Wave Country Arc, after he “kills” Sasuke ] :
“So….this is your first time seeing your most precious person die in front of you…?”
Orochimaru [ Chuunin Exam Arc, when he is talking to Kabuto ] :
“Sasuke-kun is full of revenge… he has been living to revenge his big brother, Itachi. He cannot die until he achieves his goal. But when he fought with me he came at me, even though he knew he couldn’t beat me, without fearing death. I thought he wasn’t the type of kid who lives in hurry for death. According to your information, the relationship with the Kyuubi kid has been gradually changing his goal and mind. Since he has that much of an effect over Sasuke-kun… it’s better to separate those two early.”
Sakura [ Sasuke’s Betrayal Arc, when she asks Naruto to bring Sasuke back ] :
“Naruto, I beg of you.. please bring him… please bring Sasuke-kun back. I couldn’t do it… I couldn’t stop him. The only thing left that could stop Sasuke-kun is… you, Naruto… only you…”
Neji [ Sasuke’s Betrayal Arc, when Kidoumaru challenges them ] :
“If you stop here, you can’t catch up to Sasuke. Naruto, …Your eyes is better than mine. Right now, Sasuke is inside his darkness. You’re the only one who can save him.”
Gaara [ Sasuke’s Betrayal Arc, after the fight with Kimimaro ] :
“To fight for the important person… he (Kimimaro) was the same as Uzumaki Naruto. The person who is important to you isn’t always good. No… even if you knew they were evil… people can’t defeat loneliness.” ( Gaara draws a parallel between Naruto and Kimimaro. Kimimaro fights for Orochimaru, his important person. I believe Gaara has foreseen Sasuke’s decission and what would happen to Naruto afterwards, Naruto knows that Sasuke leaves Konoha by his own choice and even when the possibilites of Sasuke turning evil, brainwashed, mind-fucked by Orochimaru are high, he is still hell-bent on pursuing Sasuke, his important person )

Yes, I think Sasuke is the seme. Why, you ask? Many fans have argued that they’re interchangeable and I do believe that they are equals in their “relationship” but in “bed”, I think that is a totally different matter : Sasuke is more selfish and self-centered than Naruto, plus he has a serious issue of superiority complex. He is used to being treated as the “Golden Boy” everywhere ( By Konoha and by Orochimaru ) I don’t think he’ll let anyone be in control other than him. Sasuke is not a man that will be satisfied with “stalemate” as a result, even when it comes to “under-the-sheets” matters. Contrary to popular belief, the one who initiates the first “contact” and “relationship” between the two of them is Sasuke. He’s the one who offers his lunchbox to Naruto, he is the one who constantly saves Naruto, and the one who rushes out to check on Naruto in the morning after the training & when Itachi returns to Konoha in search of Naruto.

In my opinion, Naruto is more fragile than Sasuke in many ways ( Oh come on! He has to put up with the shit the villagers throw at him everyday and the burdens of carrying a demon inside him for his entire life! ) Judging from his desperation of pursuing Sasuke, I think Naruto will be more dependant to the bond/relationship more than Sasuke will ever be, thus that leads me to believe that Naruto is willing to throw away everthing to save Sasuke including his pride and dominance ( He doesn’t afraid of being ripped apart as long as he can save Sasuke, it shows that he is willing to throw away his life and his dream of being a Hokage –you can’t be a Hokage if you’re dead!- )

Also, Naruto’s fragile side is shown clearly when he’s inside Itachi’s genjutsu. When Sasuke’s figure emerges from the half of his body, we saw fear and despair in Naruto’s eyes ; he fears that he cannot save Sasuke this time, too. I also think the part where Naruto’s body is ripped apart and Sasuke’s figure appears from it symbolizes something : Sasuke will always remain as another half of Naruto’s soul and heart. Naruto will never be whole without Sasuke, and vice versa ( Kishi-san has shown us many sides of Naruto’s insecurities after the Time Jump already! ) Plus, we often find out that Naruto unconsciously flirts with many dominating, arrogant, “I’m holier than thou” characters ( e.g Neji, Gaara, Temujin, and last but not least, Sai ) and Naruto always craves to be loved and acknowledged. So, needless to say, I love both girly!scrawny!uke and aggressive!uke Naruto to death and I refuse to be ashamed of it ♥ ( Don't take me wrong, I enjoy it too when Naruto takes reigns once in a blue moon ) SasuNaru all the way !

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2. Uchiha Itachi x Uzumaki Naruto
Now this is not a canon pairing. ItaNaru used to be tied in the first place with SasuNaru, but then I met hardysmidgen and SasuNaru won the first place again. The reason why I love this pairing is, if there is a person who can understand Itachi, I think that person is Naruto. Both are feared ( in Itachi’s case, feared and envied ) because of something they have no control of : Itachi because of his outstanding talent and his identity in Uchiha clan as the perfect prodigy, probably the best shinobi Konoha has ever produced after the Yondaime ( being an ANBU captain and killing all the people in his clan in the age of 13 ) , Naruto because he is the host of the Kyuubi soul who is one of the strongest bijuu. Naruto always sees the good in people, and I think Naruto’s brightness and his ability to understand other people’s pain and makes them his own burden can balance the darkness that is Itachi. After all, no one knows what lies behind the tragedy of Uchiha massacre.

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3. Sasori x Deidara
I don’t believe in female! Deidara. Deidara is male, Goddamnit! In case you haven’t noticed, Deidara got like 19-second appearance in the anime, on the end of Sasuke’s Betrayal Arc. We can hear his voice there, and it’s definitely a male’s voice ( deep and boyish ) - I’m sure it’s Deidara, since only his single eye was visible and he said something like,”……,un!” to end his sentence. Take a look at the manga and see the way he squats/talks/bickers and his flat chest – he is definitely a male. Sasori and Deidara win over my fangirl heart at their first appearance in the manga – they bicker and argue all the time like an old married couple. Both love art, although their view of true art and beauty are very different : One portrays art as something eternal, one believes that art is something beautiful and fleeting and should end with a “bloody bang”…. *sweatdrops* Also, Deidara calls Sasori “Sasori-danna”, which I’m certain means “master” ( This is the more intimate than –sama, since you can’t just call the people you just meet with “-danna”, even when his social status is higher than you ) or “husband” ( *gasps* Anyone find this cute ^_^? Me, me! ) Either way, maybe that’s a hint that they’re actually closer than it looks to be.

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4. Sabaku no Gaara x Uzumaki Naruto
( You can’t blame me for having so much OTP’s with Naruto on it >_>!! The kid’s asking for it, with the way he unconsciously flirts with another! ) They both have the same past and the same fate : They have bijuu sealed in their bodies, feared and shunned by their villagers. Although Gaara’s past is much more painful than Naruto’s ( Naruto has Iruka who cares for him and puts his faith on him while Gaara has to deal with a dysfunctional family and his uncle, Yashamaru, whom he loved dearly tried to kill him ) , Naruto is the one who changes Gaara from a cold-blooded, ruthless killer by showing him he doesn’t need to kill to prove his existence, to a kazekage who would place his life in the line to protect his village. Got the hint? They don’t talk often with each other, but they certainly don’t need words to understand each other.

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5. Rock Lee x Haruno Sakura
It irks me that Sakura is bashed so much in Naruto fandom. I *adore* Sakura ( and this comes from me, who hates almost all female characters in every fandom ). Sure, she is annoying at the beginning, a typical fangirl who ogles at a boy only for his looks but knows nothing about his background and a pink leech who occasinally clings to Sasuke. But later in the series ( ecspecially after the Time Jump ) …she has matured , grown strong in her own way and in my opinion, get over her crush for Sasuke – this is shown clearly when she says that this time she’ll be the one who protects them both and brings back Sasuke for Naruto when Naruto goes on a rampage in Tenchi Bridge due to Orochimaru's taunts. I think she deserves her happy ending - who is more suitable to be with her than Lee who looked like he genuinely loves her? That and the fact that she has gotten over the bowl-cut, sparkling teeth, and the bushy-eyebrows thingy ^_^;;

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6. Hyuuga Neji x Uzumaki Naruto
Before he got his ass kicked in the exam by Naruto, Neji was a stuck-up, angsty, and arrogant teen ( More like Sasuke ), who believed that their fate has been foreordained. It’s Naruto who saved him from his darkness, and even in the verge of his death after fighting Kidoumaru, Neji still puts his faith in Naruto and it’s Naruto words that makes him stand after Kidoumaru’s brutal assault. ( Frankly talking, I think Neji only gives a shit to the Hyuuga family and Naruto, although after the Time Jump he smiles more often and also looked more friendly XD )

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7. Hatake Kakashi x Umino Iruka
Sensei love XD! Don’t you think the scene when Kakashi hands Iruka the report from Wave mission and then Iruka blushes furiously cute? That and the episode when Kakashi summons Pakkun on Iruka’s palm….Kakashi needs someone to show him love too after all the tragedy in his life! ( his father committed suicide, Obito died, and Rin just…dissapeared )

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8. Orochimaru x Yakushi Kabuto
Have you ever wondering why Oro always picks silver-haired bishies ( except Sasuke ) as his subordinates? *stares pointedly at Kabuto and Kimimaro* And why is Kabuto so loyal to Orochimaru? ~~I bet putting his 8-foot tongue on a good use to Kabuto-kun is one of Oro’s favourite things to do at a spare time...~~

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9. Sai x Uzumaki Naruto
Oh you totally see this coming XD! I don’t like Sai too much when he is first introduced, but then the penis jokes start flying around , his crop shirt makes all fangirl go “%#$$!!!” , and the way Naruto blushes when Sai sees him naked on the Bathhouse…..….But if this is ever to happen, I think it will be more one-sided on Sai’s part, since Naruto’s too obsessed with Sasuke ( See Sai’s hurt/worrying glance at Naruto when he runs and trips just to see Sasuke ^_~? )

There you go ^___^ Only nine, since I can't think of anything else at the moment... You're right if you say I don't have a life outside my computer XP ( Hey, my Final Exam is done here! I don't have anything better to do >__> )

*is waiting for Naruto 307 to come out and the Final Exam's result*

Sun, 14 May 2006 07:10:21 GMT

[mood : depressed]
[music : Sasuke's Theme - Naruto OST]

Uzumaki Naruto is being stalked on Livejournal!

Uchiha Sasuke is stalking Uzumaki Naruto
Uchiha Sasuke’s REAL name :	Uchiha Sasuke, of course!
Uchiha Sasuke’s REAL DOB :	28th April 1981
Height :172 cm	Weight : 88.8 kg
Sasuke has dreamt about Naruto :	999,000,000,000 times
Uchiha Sasuke became interested in Uzumaki Naruto :	24th August 2003
Uchiha Sasuke’s latest dream about Uzumaki Naruto
Naruto is captured by Orochimaru with Uchiha Sasuke as his tormentor and is showing him kinky new ways to make use of the bow-butt.
This is how Sasuke describes their relationship behind Naruto's back
‘We are just really good friends at the moment. I’d honestly cut off my arm to be with him though’
Uchiha Sasuke’s been stealing stuff from Naruto's house too.
Remember Naruto's nightcap? It went missing two and a half years ago mysteriously
Sasuke even started modifying his body for Naruto
Uchiha Sasuke took a bit far when he tried so hard to build muscles in an attempt to seduce Naruto to start to make babies with him after 2 and a half years.
He sent the following message to Naruto in a Valentines
If God had a face, he’d look something like you. And if you were ever to leave me, I’d fucking nail you to a cross before you had a chance for a last supper.

The ANBU
No. calls to the ANBU :	2 times
Naruto's Last Call to The ANBU
"ANBU-SAN!?!? Uchiha Sasuke’s in my backyard again stealing clothes off of my washing line. This is the 10th time in a week for fucks sake."
Uchiha Sasuke’s ANBU File
When Uchiha Sasuke last spent time inside even the most hardened criminals feared for their lives when they were near him.

Testimonies about Uchiha Sasuke

Haruno Sakura - Medic-nin In Training

‘To be honest I think Uzumaki Naruto and Uchiha Sasuke deserve each other. Both of them are fucking idiots.’

Hyuuga Neji - The Hyuuga Prodigy

‘I don’t really have that many enemies - but Uchiha Sasuke is definitely one of them now.’

Tsunade - Godaime Hokage, Former Sannin

‘Boring. I know Uzumaki Naruto and Uchiha Sasuke really love each other. They are both just seeking attention. Just get married and stop the fucking games already! Jesus!’

Inuzuka Kiba - Newly Appointed Chuunin

‘Neurotic, depressing and royally fucked up are only three of the possible phrases I could use to describe both Uchiha Sasuke and Uzumaki Naruto. Chances are Uzumaki Naruto’s just made all of this shit up again.’

You know you're going to miss my crack when I'm gone! *IS BRICKED AND MAULED TO DEATH*

Warning : Big ass-post!

Sun, 14 May 2006 04:19:34 GMT

[mood : distressed]
[music : The Raising Fighting Spirit - Naruto OST]

Starting today I'm officially grounded until next Thursday due to my Highschool Final Exam. Thank God Naruto Chap 307 usually come out at Wednesdays/Thursdays so I can immediately grab it after a looonggg dreaded exams day and then rant and SQUEE ( or maybe WAIL, since Chapter 307 is angst foreboding ;___; ) with hardysmidgen about our recently fav OTP! *cheers* Rhee and hardysmidgen, be prepared for my impending fangirling rants of doom >D!! *cackles evilly and dodges rotten tomatoes* Hey, fandom is my life >__>!

A meme posted for my crack pleasure XD :
First, write down the names of 12 characters. Then read and answer the questions. You can't look at the questions until you write down the 12 characters you're going to use.
1. Kiba
2. Gaara
3. Kakashi
4. Sai
5. Sasuke
6. Itachi
7. Deidara
8. Kankurou
9. Naruto
10. Neji
11. Shino
12. Iruka

-Have you ever read a Six /Eleven fic? Do you want to?
Itachi/Shino Considering that they have the same taste in clothes ( high-collared one ) and they're both the silent type....err...I doubt I'd want to read a fic with only Hn's and Hmph's as the dialoques O__O.

-Do you think Four is hot? How hot?
Sai HOT DAMN. His raw sexiness almost ( key word : ALMOST ) rival Sasuke's. And his remarks on Naruto's penis? *four thumbs up*

-What would happen if Twelve got Eight pregnant?
Iruka got Kankurou...pregnant? *eyebrows make a permanent home in hair* Iruka's gonna offer to marry him and then Kankurou will try to kill Iruka with his Karasu and Kuroari.

-Can you read any fic(s) about Nine?
Naruto? I read them everyday :D!! Ecspecially the smutty ones with Sasuke and Itachi....Mmnn! For ItaNaru I recommend "Winter Release" by StarsofYaoi + "This Place is a Prison" by tsubaki-hana. My personal favourite SasuNaru ones - "Farewell, mi amour" by Hara Junko + "Until the Snow Stops" by tsubaki-hana. And then SasuNaruGaaNaruNejiNaru crackfic! one, "The Ultimate Uke Syndrome" by rosesareblue. All of them can be found in FF.Net ^__^

-Would Two and Six make a good couple?
Gaara/Itachi I guess it makes some sense, since they're both used to be psychotic, sadist killers? I doubt they'll come alive out from their first night together, tho....

-Five/Nine or Five/Ten? Why?
Sasuke/Naruto or Sasuke/Neji DEFINITELY Sasuke/Naruto *waves the OTP banner* They're so fuckin canon that it makes my heart soar in happiness. As for Sasuke/Neji...would there be COUPLING in the first place O__O? IMO, they'll most likely fight over Naruto's attention than sexing each other up senseless.

-What would happen if Seven walked in on Two and Twelve having sex?
Deidara walked in Gaara and Iruka having sex? Deidara'd probably shot them his trademark sunny smile, waved it off like it was nothing, and muttering, "All right my jinchuuriki target, I'll give you 10 more minutes, un!"

-Make up a summary for a Three/Ten fic.
Kakashi/Neji "The only reason why Kakashi puts up with Gai is because, he's been obsessed with one of his rival's students, the-too-beautiful-to-be-real Hyuuga Neji, and is planning to show the Hyuuga prodigy that he'll make a better sensei than Gai. Will the forbidden romance bloom between the usually stoic teen and the infamous Sharingan Kakashi?"

-Is there any such thing as One/Eight fluff?
Kiba/Kankurou I doubt that Kankurou'll let Kiba top him - He is the one who saved Kiba from Sakon/Ukon after all. But I guess there are several of them.

-Suggest a title for a Seven/Twelve ( hurt/comfort fic.)
Deidara/Iruka "The Dolphin and The Sculptor" ( Gosh, I feel so stupid )

-What kind of plot device would you use if you wanted Four to deflower One?
Sai/Kiba O____o Sai is broken-hearted since the return of Sasuke to Konoha, and on his way to comfort himself to Ichiraku, he meets a boy with a giant dog with a loud and brash attitude who reminds him of Naruto.

-Does anyone on your friends list read Seven slash?
Deidara? Yup! Ecspecially Sasori/Deidara ones...*giggles in malicious glee*

-Does anyone on your friends list read Three het?
Kakashi? Kristen-san maybe? *blinkblink* I have no idea, since most of the people in my f-list love slash and yaoi...

-Does anyone on your friends list write or draw Eleven?
Shino. Kristy-san have drawn several gorgeous Shino fanart+drabble! Go and check them for your viewing pleasure ^0^!

-Would anyone on your friends list write Two/Four/Five?
Gaara/Sai/Sasuke Holy shit that'll be SEXY, but how the hell they're goint to decide who tops who without Naruto arouund? That's like SEME GALORE for me, but..*encourages peeps to write for the sadistic pleasure of it*

-What might Ten scream at a moment of great passion?
Neji. Something that sounds suspiciously like "FATE!!"

-If you wrote a song-fic about Eight, which song would you choose?
Kankurou. "Angel" by The Corrs. That song reminds me of him and Gaara

-If you wrote a One/Six/Twelve fic, what would the warnings be?
Kiba/Itachi/Iruka. Yaoi, M/M, crack, inapropriate use of ninja dogs, sadism, brain-breaker

-What might be a good pick-up line for Two to use on Ten?
Gaara/Neji. "Your hair is the most beautiful thing I've ever seen after the revelations of the color of human blood"

-When was the last time you read a fic about Five?
Sasuke. Just an hour ago

-What is Six super-sekrit kink?
Itachi. He secretly wants a threesome with his orokana otouto and his kyuubi vessel.

-Would Eleven shag Nine?
Shino/Naruto. Yeah, maybe someday with his bugs...*shudders and claws at the mental image* O.O

-If Three and Seven get together, who tops?
Kakashi/Deidara. Definitely Kakashi. He is a proud owner of "Icha Icha Make-Out Tactics" after all

-"One and Nine are in a happy relationship until Nine suddenly runs off with Four . One, broken-hearted, has a hot one-night stand with Eleven and a brief unhappy affair with Twelve , then follows the wise advice of Five and finds true love with Three ." What title would you give this fic? Name three people on your friends list who might read it. Name one person who should write it.
Kiba and Naruto are in a happy relationship until Naruto suddenly runs off with Sai. Kiba, broken hearted, has a hit one-night stand with Shino and a brief unhappy affair with Iruka, then follows the wise advice of Sasuke and finds true love with Kakashi"
Title : "The Ultimate Brain-Breaker Fic"
Readers : I really, really doubt anyone with a sane, well-functioned brain would read a mind-raping fic with a summary like this....

-How would you feel if Seven/Eight was canon?
Deidara/Kankurou. Kishimoto-san is definitely on crack.

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Thu, 11 May 2006 12:15:27 GMT

[mood : morose]
[music : Nami Kaze Satellite - Naruto OP Theme]

Naruto chap 306.

HOLY SHIT. SASUKE.

I-I...I don't know what to feel right now. Really. A part of me wants to rejoice because Sasuke's face is finally shown and he's like 1,000,000,000 times stronger and sexier, but another part wants to break down crying for Naruto.

This chapter has only a few dialoques, but it brings tears fo my eyes. Right now I just want to kidnap Naruto and cuddle him. I got the feeling that in the next chapter his heart will be crushed and crushed and crushed again.

Excuse me while I cry my eyes out. I'll fangirl over this chapter later when I'm in a more coherent state - I don't know what the fuck happened to me, because right now I just want to wake Haku from his grave and tell him to shoot 1,000,000,000 poisoned needles at Sasuke.

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